It’s been a very fast weekend.  Why do the weekends fly by so slowly and the week sometimes drags on and on?  Well, I guess it really doesn’t as for me, time is just passing by so quickly. Time just seem really weird for me. I wonder if everyone else feels the same way?

After my pool work out yesterday morning, Dell and I headed for the city for Chad’s birthday celebration. We all met at Red Lobster, then back to Amy and Chad’s for cake and celebration.  It really was a nice time.  Pete and Lilly as always are a huge hit for all the kids.  Chad’s side of the family has lots of kids!  And we laughed and really had a great time. It was a relief for me to get away and “just be” for awhile.  Whatever that means?

Skylar wanted to come home to “Mee Maw’s” house and spend the night.  Would I ever say no to her? *laughs*  Amy offered to come pick her up today but I told her we’d meet half way. It only seems fair.  On the way home I asked Skylar,  “You like to come to Mee Maw’s house, huh?”  “Yeahhhhhhh”  *she drags out the word.  “Why?” I then asked her.  “Because I like your house. It’s cute Mee Maw!”  Awwww……………..my heart melted!  My house is cute?  Okay, so I guess it goes back to the, “I like things cozy and worn, and comfortable” or something. Last night I had shown the photo of my new TV cabinet to Amy’s sister-in-law on Chad’s side as she is into the rustic thing too.  We started looking at all the photos I have of my house on my camera and her comment was,  “You’re house looks like one of those country  stores!”  I laughed and for a moment wondered if I was a bit too obsessed?  Nahhhh………….I’ve just created what I live in to be what is inside me.  Soft/gentle/used/comforting.  Lots of little candle lights and stuff.  Perhaps that represents the light within?  But not to digress too much, I remembered when my dad died and I decided to move into this house, I knew I had to make it me………………..it’s the only way I knew how to do it.  And I did.

Speaking of which, I noticed yesterday at Red Lobster Skylar was talking to me. (She wanted to sit next to Mee Maw).  She suddenly began talking about her great mee maw and great ba pa.  I thought it was strange.  She was trying to tell me something.  I wasn’t quite understanding what she was saying, then someone said something to me and I lost my focus on her.  A bit later Amy said to me, “Mom, it’s weird, Skylar’s been talking a lot about her great mee maw and ba pa.”  So we asked her a little about it.  “Did she know what they looked like? Etc.”  Yup!  She knew.  It was a bit strange.  So this morning, after she woke up I told her I wanted to ask her a really important question.  I got a photo of my mom and dad out and I asked her if she knew who these people were?  “Yes, she pointed to my mom and said,  “That’s great mee maw.”  “Skylar how do you know?”  She said, “Because she comes to my bedroom.”  Okay, that freaked me out!  I went running for Dell,  “DELL!  DELL!!! YOU have to hear this!”  So I took Skylar who is now noticing my freaking out mode suddenly, and the photo to Dell in his room.  “Skylar, tell Ba Pa who these people are!”  Well, she froze under the pressure!  I never could get her to tell me………….in front of Dell!  Later Amy and I questioned her when we met for lunch.  She again said that yes, great mee maw comes to her room.  So Amy asked if it was her room at her house or at mee maw’s house.  She said, “Mee Maw’s.”  And with that we all sort of got quiet. 

This is not the first time Skylar has come up with anything spiritual!  OMG!  This child can be the epitome of a spiritual vessel filled with information.  Like the time Amy was singing a Christian song in the car and looked in the rear view mirror to see Skylar staring at her.  “I’m singing to Jesus Skylar, do you love Him?”  She asked.  Out of nowhere Skylar clearly said, “Yes, He’s coming soon!”  Amy said, “Who?”  And she said, “Jesus, He’s coming soon.”  WHOA!  Amy about wrecked the car!  This has been awhile back when Skylar had just begun to speak really clearly.  It came out of nowhere, and when Amy tried to question her about it, she suddenly lost her “vision” I guess and went back to wavering between baby talk and clarity talking about something that didn’t make sense.  She really is an amazing child.

I found that quite informative!

After we left from meeting Chad and Amy for lunch, Dell and I took off on a ride through the countryside as we headed the 45 miles home. I continue to look for something?  What am I looking for? I even prayed on this as we drove through the country-side.

Right now my thoughts are on doing some major improvements to where I am currently living, here at what was once my parents dream “retirement” house.  It needs some stuff done, like an added master bedroom, converting the garage into a family room, and building a new breezeway/sunroom to an outside garage to attach to the house.   I’m just in the mood to do something to try to make it what I keep seeing in my spirit.  Will I do it? I don’t know?  I’m sure praying on it, as this restlessness continues to drive me.  Somewhere?  What am I looking for?

When I first woke up this morning I noticed a very strange hit on my site. (Yes, I still track who reads here.)  It was from Washington DC, and they had linked in from a site I wasn’t familiar with.  It turns out my journal is back on the stock market.  No, not Wall Street (wouldn’t that be nice!), but a fantasy stock market played on-line for blogs and books.  I had NO clue I was back on there!  I had an earlier journal a few years ago, before I opened this one in 2005, that was a TOP seller on this stock market/game.  When I got sabotaged by  Amy’s ex in-laws I was so devastated I just deleted it.  Later I learned that some people lost big money on my blog back then!  I had NO idea!  So I was shocked I was back on it and have been for awhile! Don’t ask me what it means or how it works, as I have NO clue, I only know that it means there are people who think the blog is worth something!  Now what it means to me is MOTIVATION to get this book thing done!  J 

With that I will close as I must work tomorrow which means getting up early.  It’s my boss’ birthday today so I made a cake tonight to celebrate tomorrow with her. I didn’t get the cake made until tonight because I was out on some sort of quest earlier today looking……………..for something?  I’m sure one day I’ll understand but until then……………………

Oh, I found the most AMAZING personality test tonight I want to share with everyone.  No kidding! It described me to a T!  I thought those that share my journey with me would like to take it too as it might help you understand more about yourself, at least it did me!  Here is the link:

http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

Here's a more detailed analysis of your personality type:

http://www.personalitypage.com/high-level.html

I am an ENFP.  A  short explanation of an ENFP is below.  This personality test was FASCINATING and truly helped me understand why I do of the things I do and why I hold some things so close to my heart!

Portrait of an ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Intuition with Introverted Feeling)

I hope you will take the time to do this. It’s really pretty cool.

And now, it’s true!  Off to bed because 5:30am will be here before I know it and it will be another day!  I have to keep remembering what God is asking of me right now:  A: Take on day at a time  B: Don’t’ detest the small beginnings  C: And trust that all things will work to good!  I think that’s a great way to close tonight’s journal.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  Well, just because.  J  I send you love and light and wish you a beautiful tomorrow.  Love, Sunshine