Because it’s so late to start, this shall be a shortened journal.  Writing times these days are focused on the book.  Tho today has been a lot of meditative time as I discovered recently that a dream I had a few years ago was prophetic. Unfortunately,  because it was a sad dream for me I didn’t journal it.  But I’ve discovered if a dream is from God with a message in it, or what is to be, I never forget.  The interesting thing is, this dream now has revealed to me another dream from around that time probably was prophetic too.  I guess I’m amazed that this has happened, again.  I need to talk to Elizabeth. She’s such a good sounding board on these “rare” happenings. But then so would Sydney, Linn, Donna, and Jane………..well, I guess most of my friends would listen on this one. But first, I myself have to write what I do remember of the dream which I would guess probably came in 2006.  Darn! Why didn’t I journal it back then?  The other dream that coincides I did journal, the one with important information.

Time is moving on and once again I keep getting not so good vibes of what is happening in the world. I choose not to talk of it tonight as this must remain a place of love and light, but I am sensing some things that aren’t of love and light. Yet, God promises I am/will be sheltered in the storm, if I will keep my focus where it must be.  Sometimes tho, I take my eyes off of where they need to be because I become so entangled in the life part of the journey.

My friend Jen wrote me tonight to give me some BIG news from her story.  Jen is my friend who has lived a twin soul story for probably 18-20 years now.  As me, she is married to someone she’d call her best friend, and yet the other without a doubt is where her heart has ached to be over and over.  A few years ago they met in a truck stop where he admitted not a moment went by he didn’t think of her, only a day later to become a huge jerk to her once again.  She swore him off forever!  “Okay, whatever!” I told her, knowing no matter how hard one tries, if it is really what I have come to believe it is, it just doesn’t go away. So over the next few years we continued to try to figure out what it is we can learn from our stories.  Jen is also the one who went to where Soul Mate lives, saw a show, met him, whereas he told her how special I was.  She never mentioned my real name, only said, “Sunshine.”  Right away he said my real name……………he knew.  “She is so special.” He told her, along with some very special things he did for her that night to the point she was bewildered at the hospitality he extended to her.  Such memories for me!  I haven’t talked to Jen in awhile.  After I left the high school we didn’t see one another every day as we had for so long, but we have managed to keep in touch by having lunch occasionally, and by email, even becoming friends via facebook recently.  Tonight I got an email from her:

“I have a new saga for your journal!  What is one supposed to do when after years and years the object of one’s heart calls and finally begins to profess his love that has been hidden for so long?  Be careful what you wish for as it might come true, and then what?? – Jen

Out of nowhere he calls!  She’d had a closed door for a couple years, so she had pretty much given it up, sort of, still feeling him in her heart, and yet not understanding it because she had become a case of complete denial.  Now, out of nowhere? He calls and I guess has caved in to all that he feels for her.  Wow!!  I wonder if he’s had some sort of spiritual experience or something because I am really coming to believe that is the time when you recognize the gift you’ve been given.

I haven’t talked to Jen directly yet.  I got the email tonight………I did respond…..here it is:

*speechless* 

I only have one question…………..”Is it worth it?”

Dinner?  I am here for a sounding board.  I have shared so many stories with so many women through the years I do know the right questions to ask now.  I’m here if you need me.

-Sunshine

I will probably hear from her and wouldn’t be surprised if we don’t have a dinner date soon.

Went to my doctor today to follow up. He honestly doesn’t believe the MRI is anything to worry about, however, he does want some more blood work done. I also had physical therapy where I was re-evaluated.  My strength and flexibility are up tremendously in a month!  I have done the exercises, been working out in the pool, and the new drugs the Rheumatologist gave me have all combined to where I am feeling much better.  However, he still wants to keep tallies on both my sed rate and my thyroid as he believes there is possibilities it could be shutting down?  Something new to ponder, except I still believe I walk in divine health and all these annoying things are only awakening me to some spiritual things that need healed.

Now I will head to bed. I have to work tomorrow, 8 hours. *yuck*  Am I spoiled or what?  Plus, I’ve had a big day of appointments, pool workout, hot tub tonight, and doing some serious remembering of a dream.  A very prophetic dream that seems to serve as a reminder some things will never be explained, but God does communicate with us through our dreams.  Wow.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  Obviously these dreams I speak of were of you, or about you.  I wish in a public forum I could talk about these dreams but for the sake of privacy, yours and mine, I shall not.  I only know that my whole life I have not had ANYONE teach me the things I have learned since meeting you so long ago. Twin soul or not (can one really ever know), I only know that you and I share something very special and probably always have.  I will chalk you up to that one thing I just can’t explain, and as always you will remain my man of mystery.  My man of mystery  I will send love and light to always and forever because I keep hearing in my spirit, it is meant to be (me sending you love and light).  Goodnight,  Love, Sunshine