It’s probably way too late to begin journaling, but tonight I feel I must, feeling in a sort of celebratory type mood.  I got the email this afternoon that my journal had been chosen “Journal of The Week” for Bravenet.   I was touched and happy and feeling very flattered.  Inspired!  It inspires me to continue on.  My old journal so long ago once received this award too.  I remember how I felt way back then, which now would have been almost 5 years ago.  Touched.  So very touched. Tonight, I feel the same. I know I must get thd book done, tho I always wonder why I procrastinate so on it.

I continue to gripe about this stupid “time change, spring forward” thing!  People were so tired today!  Me included!!  It’s because we all lost an hour this weekend!  So when I went to work this morning, where clocks had not been changed, I realized my body was thinking it was only 6:00am, vs. 7:00am!  That means I got up at 4:30am, or so my body felt. I suppose misery loves company, and well, I wasn’t alone. Everyone was yawning and half going through their day.  I suppose the only ones that couldn’t complain were those that work the overnight shift.  When the clock struck 2:00am, they got to spring it forward to 3:00am which meant they only had to work 7 hours that night vs. 8.  There’s always a bright side somewhere for someone.  For me tho, I’m struggling tonight!

I came home from work, did a little on-line stuff, fell half asleep, and forced myself to go to the park and walk the dogs and myself!  FINALLY! I got on the scales this morning and was down 5#s.  I felt inspired!  Besides, it’s Lilly’s birthday!  My baby is now 4, dog years, I think people years she would be 28 today or something.  Not that Lilly understands birthdays, but me, her human mom does!  I can’t believe she has been with me now almost 4 years. (I got her for Mother’s Day, 2005.)  The walk was nice, tho I do continue to have challenges with this stupid fibromyalgia stuff!  It’s all mental I keep telling myself!  So I try to ignore it as if it doesn’t exist.  Sometimes it works, and sometimes I am on the verge of tears because it does really hurt.  It could be so much worst tho, so I don’t complain.

I’m off tomorrow and I am SO thrilled that I am!  I have no plans, other than tomorrow shall be swimming day for my workout, which I always love the pool vs. walking.  I didn’t get much spiritual time in today which is bothering me.  I go through these incredibly HIGH spiritual times, and then I go through these seasons when I don’t seek as I should and push myself out into some sort of desert or something.  The awesome part of this is God is still near and I know He is.  He knows my heart and there’s nothing I can hide from Him, so I guess He knows that I’m sorry I’m not applying myself more at the moment to enter that place of worship where I always find Him.  But life is balance, and I think He allows us to experience the “empty” seasons as well as those AWESOME spiritual highs.  I’m just in the balance.

And with that, I think I will take this spring-forward tired-out body to bed.  In a week I’ll forget how icky it was trying to adjust once again………….and it will all be normal to me.  But for tonight, it feels good to complain.  But complain I will not because surely, this spring-forward means my favorite season is on the way!  SUMMER!  And I am so ready!  Actually I will be headed for the beach in a mere 3 weeks, or something like that as I head to South Carolina for Joel’s graduation from Officer School.  But more on that as the days come and I prepare to go to my very favorite place in the world, the beach!  Where I dream, and will stand on the ocean shore, look out to sea, say some wishes that still remain in my heart, close my eyes, see “him”,  and dream of one day when perhaps……………

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  I have to tell you for the longest time I always wanted to make that special “hit” on my STAT button you, but was always afraid to let it in to face the truth is was you.  Suddenly, I’m not so afraid. I can’t say I understand it, but I don’t think I’m supposed to, because this is the place I promised you that you could come to, where no matter what happened in your life, or what the day brought, you could come to find real love.  Because I do, and I know God does, and it’s SO real for you if you needed it.  I also promised you no expectations, and to this day, tho there have been some challenges along the way, I  have let go of that, realizing that we found one another for such a higher purpose.  Sometimes I forget, but there is always a gentle reminder that this is a place of beauty. For you, for me.  And once again, it has been recognized. Funny, it is happening at almost the same time things are exciting for you too, in your own world as your own CD is released.  I send you my congrats on that too………I’m so glad you do have someone in your life now, your wife, to help you believe in your dreams.  I pray that somewhere along the way I have done that for you as well, but you know, in my heart I do know the truth to that.  Isn’t that what “MUSES” are for?  J  I have to keep remembering my dear Soul Mate, it’s not about the horizon, it’s about the journey along the way.   It is here we both learn what we must learn to make it all the most it can be. I know you drove all through my state today……….as I said last night,  so close, so very, very close, and yet, so far.  Sometimes my heart aches.  But love will see us both through.  I send you love and light.  I hope you get some rest and are filled in every way.  I still wish.  Goodnight,  Love, Sunshine