Party’s over!  It was back to work today.  Of course work found me covered up, after all I hadn’t been there in 7 working days!  11 days if you count the weekends in between.  It wasn’t the best day, my poor boss had one of those “emptying out days.”  Where nothing went right. I felt bad for her, having too many times been there myself.  The day flew because I was so busy.

I finally caught up with my ole friend, “Sleeping Beauty” via email this morning. We use to talk everyday!  Life sometimes has a way to keep us so busy we don’t get to catch up.  She’s a special friend because we met at the same time I met Soul Mate. She was friends with another one of the band members of which he was in at the time.  Somehow, we became fast friends.  She lives in another state, and 8 years later, we continue to be friends.  We met one time for lunch half way between here and there, and had a great time.  We’ve gone through SO many life changes together!  Births, deaths, happiness, almost divorces, getting back togethers, laughter, crying, mystery,  trying to understand musicians, and I guess everything life is made of. It felt good to talk to her for awhile and catch up.  Why does life get in the way of friendships with all the busyness we all live with?

After work Dell and I had to meet with our accountant.  It’s tax time!  Never mind.  I pay WAY too many, only to discover in the end I still owe more!  It’s so frustrating!  But I won’t grumble!  Isn’t there two things guaranteed in life?  Death and taxes or so someone once told me.

Once again I let myself down by not accomplishing ONE of my goals!  Okay, so I did accomplish one!  I contacted my Realtor to tell her I wanted to put my property back on the market.  Here we go again!  She will be here on Thursday to do the paperwork.  Why do I freak out when the time comes?  Only this time I keep reminding myself how MUCH this place is costing me to keep up.  I also remind myself of the icky”ness” of renters.  Even tho for now I do have good renters next door, I am still not crazy about being a landlord. I am too soft and easy.  Remember?  I took the quiz, “Who You Were in A Past Life” and I was freaking Mother Teresa!  It’s no wonder I am not a good landlord. *sighs*  Give it away because you can’t take it with you.”  Or something like that.

I went to buy paint tonight to begin painting the trashed out rental but was SO tired, playing catch up from too much beach, sun and fun, that I decided to begin tomorrow. I SO don’t want to do this! Another reason I am a lousy landlord.  I just want it to *poof* be done!  But life doesn’t work that way, or in my life it doesn’t.

I called and talked to Elizabeth tonight. It’d been a LONG time since we talked. We had a marathon discussion as we caught up!  By the time we hung up my ear hurt!  I think that’s pathetic, but on the other hand, she is SO far away! When we do have time, we need to catch up!  And we did!  She’ll be coming in a few weeks for the big wedding, as Sydney’s daughter gets married, then back again for her daughter’s graduation a week later!  I am overly excited, obviously that she’ll be around a bit.

Of course the house will be on the market by then, so that means I will have to have everything in spit/spot shape ALL the time!  I so don’t look forward to that either!  I keep my house fairly clean all the time, but show-ready is something totally different.  Here we go again!

I felt very spiritual today. That was a good thing because going back to work, and being here, where my heart doesn’t long to be anymore, causes me to want to be other places, but when God stands near me, as He did today, I know I am still where I am meant to be and that there are steps that will lead me to where I am going.  I wonder if that’s considered the stairway to heaven thing?  Yeah, I think so……………….it’s all a journey while we are here, but when we return to the Father and that of which we have come from………………….surely there is a stairway between here and there. I know there is because the Bible talks about it, where angels walk up and down.  I like knowing that there is SO much more than I can see with my eyes, and when I close them I see so much more than what my natural eyes can see.  As I said, it’s been a very beautiful and spiritual day.

And now, it’s on to the hot tub to continue talking to God and being still, and seeing a night sky filled with such mystery, and such beauty.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  It was back to work today, where life just seems to have me for the moment.  Until!  I know that this book I am writing is meant to be written now.  Oh, it’s the story of you, it’s the story of me, but in this book there will be a LOT of twists and turns that perhaps we didn’t live out, but perhaps might have lived out if different decisions were made.  That’s the awesome part of what I am learning now!  Don’t be afraid to stray from where it did go, because what if?  And perhaps one day, you will finally say to me, “Sunshine!  Wouldn’t it have been cool if we would have……………..”  And I will use it in the next book!  Dreams become stories, stories become alive in hearts, and our hearts make us all believe how real love is! And love isn’t necessarily romance and Cinderella endings!  Perhaps the love I see in my spirit is about so much more? And this is what I hope to share with you and those that need to believe in love again.  You think I have finally reached that inner core of me that I have for so long struggled to reach?  Do you think I have finally completed the process you once told me I was going through?  If so, guess what?!  You were still there at the end…………..because you were meant to be.  I send you love and light as I share what I see for me coming.  It’s all about love………………….I’m finally really getting it!  Goodnight, Love, ~Sunshine