My mood is SO much better tonight!  My whole day has been this way! But then because I didn’t work today I was able to sleep in a bit, and then move sort of slow.  Normally I try to swim early in the day when I’m off, but I needed to clean since my Realtor was coming this afternoon.  I moved slowly, played my Christian music and just rejoiced in the new day.

Before I went to bed last night I had asked God to please send me a dream to help me know what to expect now of this soul mate journey.  “I just really need an understanding.”  He honored my request and I did have a dream.  To keep the dream short I will simply say:  I was in the town he normally performs in.  Dell was next to me.  We were sitting in the back row, with our backs against a brick wall. (Representing back against the wall?)  He knew I was there and totally ignored me as if he didn’t know me.  There was a bar on my right side. When the band took a break, he came over to the bar, got a drink, would not look my way!  But I knew he knew I was there. I felt this mental telepathy thing I’ve often had with him, which I wish I could explain, but in the dream he was asking me what I was doing in town, and it was quite clear, he was really angry with me. I felt the daggers!  When they went to perform again, I felt so tired. I laid my head in Dell’s lap and fell sound asleep.  When I went to write the dream in my dream journal earlier this morning at the end I wrote this:  “He will ignore me, and I will fall asleep during the show.”  When I went back and re-read what I wrote, I was like WOW!  That is prophetic!  My answer perhaps?  The good news for me I decided is to sleep represents complete peace and serenity.  I believe this is a wonderful sign for the journey up ahead.  Never mind about the “show” part. Hmmm?

I truly have found such peace, even if it is the end of a dream, and a lot of dreamy chapters!  I’m okay, and finding myself excited for the days ahead!  Oh how awesome this book will be when I am finished!  This is my soul mate now! My book!  The love I have for that which will be written has become a real part of who I am.  Corny I suppose to say, but honest.

Jane and I went to lunch. We went to one of those teeny tiny towns about 15 minutes from here. A new adventure, a new place.  We had a great lunch, tho I broke this healthy eating I’ve been on now for awhile! I splurged and ordered a ½ order onion rings. They were the best I’ve EVER had!  Worth the breaking of the determination to eat healthy.

As always we had a great time.  The weather is so beautiful now.  I got spoiled in Florida with 80-something temps, but 70 is wonderful too!  And slowly, things are turning green again.  Like me!  I am awakening after a LONG winter slumber!  Newness all around, my heart feels it too!

After lunch I came home and continued cleaning. My Realtor was due at 4:00.  I wish I could explain it, but I am doing something that makes no sense to me at the moment by putting the property back on the market. It’s one of those you just keep going forward, as if there is a silent wind guiding you.  The price has once again dropped on the place.  Never mind the $100,000s  we are down, we went down a bit more again.  The last time it was on the market there were people who REALLY wanted to buy it, they just weren’t going to pay the fair price I was asking. I’m sure it shocked them when I took it off the market.  My Realtor tells me they’ve shown up at a couple open houses she’s had and always ask about my place.  Will they be back around?  And what about me? I keep looking for dream houses, but thus far, NADA!  So I keep believing in faith that when the time is right, that house I keep seeing in my spirit will *poof* suddenly be on the market!  I told my realtor this afternoon,  “The reason we didn’t sell last year is because my new house wasn’t ready yet.”  I do believe this.  Now, I feel different, in some sort of peaceful way. The signs were put up tonight.  It will be on the MLS sheet tomorrow, and on-line by Monday. And here we go again! *smiles*  The good news is my Realtor told me not to do ANYTHING with the trashed out rental! It is simply added into the sale of the property as a bonus.  That was WONDERFUL news to me as it means I don’t have to put out an additional few thousand to get it presentable!  We will however tear out the icky carpet.  But this means I don’t have to paint the place!  *does the happy dance*

Perhaps my peaceful feelings today come not only from God’s never-ending presence all around me as I end one chapter and begin another, but when I was in Charleston, I bought a bracelet with crystals. It was for “calming” or so the tag says. It has amethyst on it which is known to be a calming energy.  On top of that, my boss for my birthday gave me a necklace with crystals, and it has amethyst as well. She gave it to me because it had a description of bringing calmness, wholeness, and peace.  Gesh!  I am just the most calm person right now!  There must be something to this calming energy from amethyst!  Or perhaps, it’s simply my touch stone, as God is surrounding me with the most incredible love and peace at the moment.

After my Realtor left and I spent some time shopping for houses on line, I got the dogs and we went out and did a mediation hike.  I turned the ipod on with my genre being “spiritual” today, and out I went to walk in early evening sunshine, as the sun was slowly beginning to set.  It always feels so awesome to me walking with the sun shining through the trees.  God didn’t have any real revelation for me today……………just the calm. I thought about how 2 people today emailed me and told me I was a strong lady.  When I hear those words I have to admit I am always shocked as I don’t see myself as strong. I pretty much think of myself as meek, a fragile piece of pottery or something just waiting to be shattered………….but when I thought about those words sent to me as I was walking, I realized that what people are seeing is God in me!  For when I am weak, He is strong!  And that is what I believe those that see me as strong are seeing.  And that blesses me more than anything because I want to be a reflection of the light of love…………..so I am most grateful to those that wrote and commented on my strength, because I know it’s not me, which means it is God in me!  What a blessing!

And with that I shall close.  Another form of peace I so adore is my hot tub!  There is nothing like wrapping a day up by sitting under the night sky!  Soon the crickets and frogs will be out singing to the night!  I love that sound.  But for now, it’s a little too early spring to hear those summer sounds.  And I just happened to think…………..”when” I move (notice the positive in that), I may not have the water source I have now with the pond and the creek, so will I hear frogs singing?  Oh well, there is beauty in every given situation, a song always to be heard no matter where one is.

And you know, tonight I will close with this thought:  Happiness isn’t found in where we are, or who we are with;  Happiness is found within ourselves.

I’m off for the hot tub filled with happiness because I have real love guiding me all the days of my life.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

~Sunshine