It’s been a very interesting 24 hours from a spiritual standpoint.  I think I’m loving where this “interesting 24 hours” may be taking me.  Is life just one big circle of which we sometimes stray from and yet we always end up back where we were meant to be?

When this whole soul mate journey began, long before I had even given it the name of “soul mate journey,” I met a gal on-line.  The way we found one another was pretty special anyway, but what was special was where this long distance relationship was to go.  Sometimes it was absolutely beautiful, and without doubt, it was God that had brought us together.  Then sometimes it was intense as she would be a voice of warning for me, and I think sometimes I convicted her on some of her actions as well.  We were instant soul mate friends we once decided, with many things in common, but then many things not in common too. The one thing we had in common was our love for God, a gift of visions, and dreams. We were both vivid dreamers, where as my friend Ang would be the one with a strong sense of interpretation.  We met back in 2002.  Tho we’ve never actually met, it sure seems we have spent a lifetime together. 

Ang is very gifted.  My first sense of these gifts was shared early on.  A few days after we met, she was the one that told me God had told her a few months earlier that she was getting ready to meet a woman who would one day become a famous author.  “Sunshine, that is you.”  She told me.  Of course I didn’t know what to think because this was LONG before I even attempted to write anything, other than my private journals, but most of those were letters to me from God, so I really didn’t accredit those to me writing.  I think I might have laughed it off a bit, but then that is me.  When God sends me messages or a vision of the “far out” things to come,  I often laugh them off, cause you know, it takes a lot for me to believe things that are so “out of the box,” even tho I am an “out of the box” type person!

A few months after we had exchanged all sorts of emails spilling out those secret private parts of our lives, I had a dream one night. In the dream I was in the hospital of which Ang worked.  Yes, I did know she worked in a hospital, and I knew she worked overnights.  In the dream I saw a hospital floor, which at the end of the floor was a waiting room.  It was the floor Ang worked, I had come to visit her in the dream.  She came out momentarily to see me.  I couldn’t really make out her face, all I could see was her beautiful auburn hair.  It was medium length and beautiful.  I knew I was in a hurry so I hugged her and thanked her for her friendship.  I went back to my bedroom to sleep the rest of the night.  The next morning I remembered my dream.  When I awakened, I emailed her to tell her of the dream.  Once again I chuckled and said, “Watch, you probably have long blonde hair or short dark hair.  “Wow, that’s amazing!” She said, “I do have auburn hair, and it is medium length because I just got it cut a few weeks ago! And the hospital, the waiting room is at the end of the hall! You’re AMAZING!”  You can bet this freaked me out too because it was probably one of the first times I ever had a dream of this type confirmed.  Interestingly enough she sent me a picture of her a week letter and sure enough, it was the hair I had seen in the dream.

Through the years we shared spiritual stories, and we shared our “twin soul journey.”  She too was living a journey, tho this wasn’t what brought us together, dreams and visions was what brought us together, finally having someone to share the gift with was a relief for both of us. It’s really hard to make people understand who have never experienced a vision.  We’d spend hours on the phone, sometimes talking long into the night, like 4:00am! 

But life goes on.  Her twin soul got married for the wrong reasons, she got divorced, then became a grandma, (even before I did, we’re the same age), and actually met someone and married a few years ago.  No, not her twin soul who she knows one day she will be with again, a long story of which I shall not share tonight. 

She often warned me of things to come.  She got mad at me the time I believed Chris would meet me at the castle at Disneyland.  Yes, I really believed this would happen! It’s a long story, just remember I believe in the unbelievable! Only the unbelievable didn’t happen that time, instead the unbelievable happened when I became a contestant on, “The Price is Right” the next day. How good God is!  When one dream doesn’t happen, there’s another one waiting in the next day, or so it seemed.  Ang had warned me the timing wasn’t right and it wouldn’t happen, and even got pretty mad at me that I was missing the whole point.  In the end I discovered, she was right and I was wrong.

And life went on, we stopped writing everyday as we had for so long.  But we still knew the other was near if necessary for prayer or whatever.  Before she got married I introduced her on-line to my friend Will, who was in his own right very spiritual.  Not quite in the same way I was, but all the same, very much seeking truths.  They began to exchange emails.  I thought they’d have a lot in common.  But it was short-lived.  “She is just too way out there for me!” Will told me.  Ang, “He’s just way out there!” She told me about Will.  Ahhhh…………a love connection I had not achieved.  *Iaughs*

Also, about his same time she had to write and tell me that “She had seen my twin soul, Chris, hold my hand in his, turn around and walk away from me. It would be for a long time she assured me, he won’t even understand why he’s doing it, but it is part of the plan.” Oh, that  vision made me pretty upset!  No way would he ever do that I was convinced!  I think I stopped emailing her over this! I wasn’t even going to be seeing him anytime soon, or had no plans to!  This was 2004.  A few months later guess what?  Yup. I did go see him and yes, it happened EXACTLY as she had seen it.  Yes, I wrote and told her, learning what crow tastes like.  Sometimes we don’t listen when we need to, especially when what is being spoken isn’t what we want to hear.

After that we really seldom wrote one another, but on our birthdays we’d ALWAYS send one another an email and wish the other a happy one, letting us know we were thinking of the other.

Christmas,  2005 I got an email from her on Christmas Eve.  “I don’t know what Will is up to, but would you PLEASE tell him to stop coming to me at night!  He’s trying to get into my cord of life and God has clamped it shut! I don’t know what he’s pulling but please tell him to stay away!”  I about passed out when I read this!  Will had committed suicide 3 weeks earlier.  Ang had NO way of knowing as I had NOT written to tell her of his passing!!!  When I wrote her back and told her that he was gone, it made more sense to her.  How and why he found her I will never understand, but then there are a lot of things that happen in life I’m not sure I’ll ever understand.  She hasn’t had any problem since.  She shared some of the personal stuff Will told her in his ghostly visit to her, but I will not publically share the words.  I believe I cried that night when all this happened. I was still missing my friend and grieving over the fact he never came to me when he felt so desperate.

So that is the history of Ang and I.  She has been 100% correct in everything she has seen for my life, and if you asked her, she’d tell you that I have been very accurate in things I have seen for her.  And even tho we don’t email these days except our birthdays, we still have a very special connection.

So that is why I decided a few days ago I needed to email her with the news that Chris had gotten married.  She needed to know because she always felt he and I would be together, even tho she never knew if it would be soon or later in life.  Yes, she needed to know.

Well this has set off some pretty awesome emails the past 24 hours!!!  The Chris thing shall remain private as there’s been some incredible prophecies made regarding that, but what is REALLY important to me is that she has really been having some pretty amazing visions about where we are on earth, and where things are happening in the spiritual realm.  I hear her, I see what she is seeing, just in a bit of a different way.

But what this is bringing me is an awakening!  Back to where I started, back to the times I used to spend with God!  Back in 2002, 2003, when I thought I had gone stark-raving mad, I would lock myself up in my bedroom at night and pray. I’d spend 2, 3, or sometimes 4 hours doing nothing but crying out to God.  Some words Ang has spoken over me the past 24 hours  are bringing me back to this place. This place of total surrender, and to be honest, I need it more than anything!  I know it’s the Christmas season, and I can’t think of a better gift anyone could give me but to re-awaken my inner spirit to return to that place where God calls me in to His presence as He teaches and shows me things.  Tonight, I am there.

Wow, how freeing it is when you put back into perspective eternity! I have been so caught up in the world lately, perhaps from some disappointment, perhaps from some other circumstances, but tonight I feel as if I have returned 5 years of my life to the place that I am totally surrendered.

Ang reminded me that I am simply here on a journey.  Sometimes I forget how short our time is on this earth, and it seems to me when we forget those things we can get all caught up in the world around us.  The failing economy, a US government who I happen to feel have gone mad, people losing jobs left and right, angry people, people who only care about self, and then you have the elitist who think their money will never fail them.  And somewhere in between I have been……..knowing how to rise above and yet, falling prey to the world that brings us down and makes us believe it is the reality.

Some of Ang’s prophecies have awakened me to go back to where I began when God was preparing me for this journey.  I need to remain in this knowledge and not get pulled back into the world situation………………….but then I think sometimes God lets me go there because that is where I learn the lessons I came here to learn.

Sound really deep?  Perhaps, but then that’s why I write here at night. To share how crazy the journey can be, how unexplainable it probably will be when you’re trusting the Father, and most of all, to share the love that exists when we allow God to do supernatural things in our lives, as He’s always guiding us in ways we just would never have really thought to go without His direction.  And Ang is a story of one person God sent to me to help me through.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Chris:  Is seems you’ve been most busy lately too. I do miss you when I can’t see you here,  but I have the most incredible faith lately of this whole twin soul journey thing.  I sometimes still feel you (as I said last night),  and then sometimes I think I have totally let go, but I understand now that sometimes you do have to let go to discover what “real” is.  For now, it is what it is and I honor it for both you and me.  But never forgotten within is a promise that I know somehow is being fulfilled the way it was meant to.  I send you love and light and warmth to fill your nights. You’re there, I’m here, and yet, somewhere we are.  Goodnight,  Love, Sunshine

Tonight's song is for my special friend I have shared so much with, from the depth of my soul, and hers, we have shared years of heartache, joys, and about everything in between. So rather than thinking of tonight's song as a love song, think of it as 2 people who God brought together on their journeys to help one another along the way.  Two people who simply share a lot of faith and love together. This is for my friend...........and some of the things we have been through over over the years.