
Welcome to my journal. The place I come each day to document and share this journey I walk. I am very open about who I am in this place. Perhaps this is the only place I can come and be me. The real me. Where I share my heart and my dreams.
I am a person that sees life a little differently than most. I am very into the love and light that Jesus blesses me with everyday. He is the number one love of my life. He is the guide on this journey I walk.
The journey isn’t always easy, for any of us. And I do share the happy, and the sad as I journal. I bravely open my heart knowing anyone could read here. But I do it with a lot of faith that I am sharing a little of heaven, touching earth.
I am currently using some of my journals in a book I am writing. A documentation of a journey. Something very special happened to me one time that began me on this journey. A story that continues to be written. Filled with love, and hope. A story filled with the unexplainable and yet a story that leads back to the fact that life is about SO much more than we will ever understand. A story I am living. A journey I am walking. The most important thing I have learned tho, is this story is not about that ending chapter. It’s about the chapters in between. Those chapters you will read here each day. You see, it is my belief as we all look back over our journey of life, we will realize in the end that it wasn’t the destination that mattered, it truly was the journey along the way.
I send everyone a lot of love and light. And thanks. For reading here. For sharing the journey with me. Even if it is only reading and allowing me to share what it is I learn each day as the faith, love, and light lead me on.
Keep on writing it is awesome.
I'm so sad to hear your bil has failed so fast. It just breaks my heart to know the pain and sadness you all are going through. My prayers and thoughts are with you, my friend! Take care and stay strong. Keep your light shining.
I love what you've done with your journal!
Today is Monday, Nov. 5, 2007, 8:56am. I'm just dropping by to wish you a great day, and to let you know Manic Monday is up.
I'll be back to read your latest post...
Just popping in to wish you a great Monday.
Drop on by and check out Manic Monday - I think you'll get a laugh out of it.
Everything we do creates a ripple in eternity……..
I had an awesome beginning to my day. I’m back in the swing of meditation hikes first thing in the morning. While it’s been a long time since I got into the place where God teaches me as I hike, this morning was so inspiring and teaching. Eternity! Everything we do in our lives today causes a ripple in eternity. That was what God was showing me as I sought Him this morning. The importance of everything I do does in fact cause a ripple in the eternal world. It’s SO deep, I’m not sure how to put into words all I was shown in my spirit. Some of the things I have done lately that I felt God was leading me to do, which were against human nature, such as taking the first step to reach out to Jason’s girlfriend with forgiveness when there was still anger in me and I felt so hurt, I believe God showed me mattered on a higher realm than I could possible understand. Truly what I was shown this morning is everything Jesus taught on earth. As I tried to soak it all in, I looked up at the sky to see white fluffy clouds, then I looked at the trees so green, with the birds singing so gleefully! Surely those birds know there is so much to sing about. I began to notice each time I looked up I saw a dove. Not a white dove, but a grey dove. It seemed to follow me where I went. When I noticed her, she would fly into a tree in front of me. I’d forget about her, but a few minutes later I’d look up to see her above me again. It was awesome! I felt so free, any anger or selfish desire within me given way to understanding that love effects eternity and God was sending me a dove as a symbol of peace for me to understand. And I walked, and I meditated and God poured out on me so much I’m not sure I can quite absorb it all even tonight.
That was the beginning of my day.
From there, I had goals I needed to attend to. One of those goals was my closet so that when the house is shown it looks bigger. I ended up cleaning it half out. I spent 2 hours on getting half done!! 2 hours and I have another 2 to go! I’m such a pack rat, I swear!! I packed a lot up for Goodwill this morning. Simplify! I must simplify!! Tomorrow I will finish this goal, then it is on to the next.
I had every intention of floating in the pool. But the sun didn’t have the same intention. In other words, if it isn’t sunny, I usually don’t go out. It was okay, it allowed me to write a bit. All I knew was I continued to feel very touched by all I was shown this morning. It was quiet all day. Other than a call from “J” who is now back living in the city, I didn’t even hear a phone ring all day. It was finally a down time for me. I have needed down for so long.
When hubby came home, we went to look again at the Jeep Liberty he is wanting to buy. Somehow we got side tracked and he is now seriously considering a Wrangler. I don’t know how he got there from where he was, but he did. Still, I don’t see it as practical and yet at the same time, can’t quite lose this feeling this is what I’m suppose to buy. No, no vision on this one, just that gnawing feeling from within. LOL, the truth is the last 2 cars I have bought I was shown in vision first. No kidding! I’d ask God about it, He’d show me what I was to buy, and I’d go to car lots until I saw it. Both times I walked away with unbelievable deals, or some sort of “miracle” occurred that shouldn’t have. Lest anyone think I am crazy as I talk this way, I have people who will confirm my story. Hubby will tell you that I have told him what we would buy before we even looked, and the car somehow always manifests with a miracle around it. This time tho, I haven’t seen what I’m suppose to buy. But then I haven’t prayed about it either. I did find myself once again tho being drawn back to the green Wrangler I saw the other day. Hmmmm???? It feels familiar to me in a way I can’t describe? Perhaps it was the daydream I had of driving to
When I reflect more about what God was showing me this morning how everything creates a ripple in eternity, I think about my new Realtors. There is something so special about the wife part of the team, Cathy. She is so kind! She makes me feel like a million bucks, ALWAYS! She constantly tells me how nice I look, or how peaceful she feels in my house and how beautiful it is! She tells me every time she comes here she wants to just look around because there is so much to take in! She called me late this afternoon and asked if she could come because I had to sign a few more papers. I never even thought about what I had on, because I had been closet cleaning all day, and hadn’t gone anywhere. When she came, I had just finished book work for my rental properties. I wasn’t dressed by any means! I had on shorts, a baby-doll shirt with a cami underneath, and my hair up in a ponytail. She walked in and told me how adorable I looked!!! OMG!!! “Where are you going, you look adorable?!” She asked. “And your hair! You look like you have it up for a wedding!” I wanted to turn around to see who else was standing in the room, because for SURE I didn’t look so great!!! But I know she was being sincere!!! And for a moment, she made me feel like a million!!! She even said, “Are you going to have a garage sale? Cause if you are, I want to come and shop your clothes!” Now I ask you, is that not flattering or what for the person who got a C on her evaluation for dress?! I smiled and said, “STOP!” Dragging out the word, not really wanting her to! Then she started on the house. “It’s SO peaceful here! And it’s so beautiful!” I like this I decide! She is the one that has to sell it!!! And I thank her and I thank God because she is touching my life to believe in myself, which creates a ripple in eternity, right? So I get off the subject of me to ask some questions about her. I learn more about her, and know without a shadow of a doubt what a beautiful and special person she is. And I think of Carol, my friend that acted as my Referral Realtor and brought these people to me. Carol said, “You will know. You will know from within.” She was right. I did from the beginning, but as time goes on I learn to really like who Cathy is. She is SO positive about selling the property! She is seeing synchronicity in everything and wants to sell as badly as I do. What a great partnership this is turning out to be. When she leaves a short time later, I find I feel so good about myself, something I so often lack belief in. And eternity is touched by someone who gives out a lot of love and care. Someone I now call my Realtor and more importantly, my friend!!!
I began journaling outside tonight but had to move in. The bugs were just too buggy for me! So I sit in my living room with my little fountain going, candles in the fireplace lit, appearing to be a fire, and of course, my ambiance music playing. I have electric candles in every window and as I look around I know that I find peace in this room. But then today, I seem to be finding peace in everything. It all began this morning, on my meditation hike, where God began to reveal to me a truth of the kingdom………everything I do creates a ripple in eternity. What a way to begin a day. What a way to see the journey in a new light. As I said yesterday, “I like there.” (That’s the place I go to meet God. A place He draws me into His love and light to teach great things.) Yes, I like “there.”
As the faith, love, and light lead me on.
Goodnight-
Sunshine
Goodnight Soul Mate: Everything I do creates a ripple in eternity. How I pray that all these years I have listened closely enough to have shared with you all this love and light I have within me. Without a doubt I know that long ago, we were to find one another and help one another back to the light. It’s something I never understood until I met you. It’s something most people don’t understand, but I believe you do. Love is about so much more than the romantic definition. After I first met you, all I wanted was to be with you! The hardest thing I ever did was walk away from you that morning at the airport, or the night we stood at your bus where everyone was waiting on you and you had to go. And the last time, when you walked away from me, how could I let you know all that was happening within me? But what could I do? You had your world, I had mine. Do you know the tears I have cried through the years because I couldn’t see you? Do you know the times I have surrendered to the pain because it was all so deep within me and I didn’t know what to do with it? And the endless nights and mornings when all I could do was pray for you? So many times I have whispered to God to please just surround him with love wherever he may be. Let him be warmed by a love he never knew. Now days tho, I find strength in realizing that after all this time, you never went away either. Everyday you come here to listen to my heart, and you stayed with me through what must have been some hurt for you too. And we’ve grown in ways I never would have believed that morning I walked away at the airport. Surely God has blessed us beyond belief with a miracle that can’t be seen, but felt and known. Surely this journey we’ve walked will end at a beautiful destination one of these days. Yes, someday soon. Very synchronistic when you think of it, huh?! I send you love and light, from my heart to yours………all these years later……still. And there is love. Goodnight, Love, Sunshine
Ripples In Eternity.........
