Tonight finds me in Williamsburg, VA.  A town I have always loved. This has become a favorite stop for me anytime I am headed for the Outer Banks.  There is a quaint feeling in this town, tho I must admit, there is also a sense of “Blue Blood” attitudes from the town’s people.  Not an overly friendly area, yet, the charm and spirit of Williamsburg makes up for such.

I am a bit frustrated! I am paying how much for my room tonight, a promise of “WIFI” connectivity, and guess what?  I can’t get on from my room.  Normally, I’d probably throw a fit, but lately, I’ve done that too much. A promise to myself to stay calm and accept whatever comes my way. So, my plan is to write, get it all ready to go, head to the lobby and post it.  If this makes it on line, my plan works.  If not, I will post it the next WIFI hot spot place I find.

Yesterday (Friday) was incredibly busy. I believe I left off there?  I left home by 6:15 a.m.  The day was spent in the city taking the dogs to the groomers, then seeing 3 new houses, then time with Skylar, a moment with Amy, get hubby from work and leaving for the Outer Banks.  Traffic in the city was incredibly hectic!  We didn’t make it out of town till after 6:30. Totally threw my plans off!  But I am trying to take life as is!  No fits!!  We dropped Skylar off at Chad’s parents between the city and the next city.  That was a bit sad for me.  Tho she was happy and that made it a lot easier.

Of the 3 houses I looked at, one was a winner. I mean a REAL winner!  Enough that when I left it, I stopped at Lowes to look at paint chips on what colors I would choose to paint the outside.  Cedar Siding painted a pale yellow or beige, needs serious redoing. The place is run down on the outside, the inside isn’t that bad.  New paint, new carpet, yet you can tell the doors are banged up, kitchen cabinets would have to be replaced.  A real fixer upper I guess you’d call it, but not at a fixer upper price!  OMG!  They would have to come down $1000s!  Perhaps they would?!  Then Linda, my city Realtor told me of a log cabin she had seen a week earlier.  “It’s off the market, as the contract expired this past week, but they may put it back on!”  She went on to tell me.  “You should see it Sunshine!”  She went on.  “All I could think of was you!”  It has four fireplaces!  Four bedrooms, and EACH bedroom has it’s own bathroom and full bath! When you walk in the great room is HUGE, with the most beautiful full fireplace!  There is a full basement, and where there is an exercise room, they have a sauna and a shower that is so big it has a double shower head!”  She now has my attention as she is SO excited about this place!  “The master bedroom is beyond words!  It’s HUGE, and has a FULL fireplace!  The kitchen is JUST what you love too!”  Now I am REALLY listening to her!  And even tho I loved, loved the first place, I know I have to see this, “IF” they put it back on the market! 

Linda went ahead and emailed me all the info on this new log home, of which I got the info while I was at Amy’s house.  As it turns out, it was on the way out of the city as we headed for the beach.  I was so excited!  We drove by it on the way.  I was a tad bit disappointed as SOMEONE painted this natural log home grey?!!!! It has a blue roof. A REAL negative to me!  I wasn’t that crazy about the lot, although there is a 3 acre pond right across the street reminding me of a property in Michigan I once visited as a kid.  My aunt and Uncle’s cottage on a small lake.  The log home has no trees around it, BUT, if the house is all that Linda says, I can plant fast growing evergreens and lots of maples!  Believe it or not, this log home is over 5000 square feet!  I can’t imagine?!  I’m not sure I want to clean over 5000 square feet!?!!  BUT, you could get lost in there, and from the photos I have seen, it so very rustic.  It’s so Me!!  On my drive I have been thinking of the 3 houses I have now narrowed my search to.  The first log home, the one I saw yesterday, and now, this log home.  But first, my place has to sell.

Speaking of which!  My realtor called me yesterday morning.  “Guess what Sunshine!?!!  Guess who’s house is listed as the “featured house of the week” in Sunday’s paper?  YOURS!”  Apparently he pulled some big strings and got this done!  But I’m not home to light candles, turn on meditative music, etc.  Then I remember, it’s not my house I’m selling it’s land.  I like the marketing strategy my Realtors are providing. They have stood up to their promises of when I chose them.  A world of difference from the first time!  So, what if I sell while I’m in the Outer Banks?  A miracle I’d call it, and I do believe in miracles!

The trip here has been okay so far.  A quiet trip.  Hubby and I don’t talk all that much.  I guess we both get lost in our own thoughts.  My thoughts have drifted between soul mate,  Jason, and letting go in life.  That means a lot of different things.

This trip reminds me of the last time I came to the Outer Banks.  Exactly two years ago today.  Jason had to fly in because he couldn’t get the weekend off, so he worked on Sunday, caught a plane that afternoon and we picked him up in Norfolk.  Hubby and I stopped back then at a buffet here in Williamsburg.  We ate there again tonight. I remember it being good, but apparently my memory wasn’t all that great.  Yeah, yuck.  As I ate I said to hubby,  “You know, two years ago today I was SO happy that Jason was flying in and could be here for Amy’s wedding. It meant everyone was here.  Did I know that in two years I’d eat at this restaurant again, only this time, Jason wouldn’t hardly talk to me, nor have anything to do with me?”  Hubby turned it back on me.  “Well, you should call him.”  Maybe he’s right, but after I wrote the letter to girlfriend, I felt as if I needed to back off and Jason had to make the next move.  I decided to drop it and hold the hurt within.  Sometimes, hubby and I just don’t see things the same.  Truly, did I know how much one of my kids could hurt me?  It made me think how in life, we really don’t know what is up ahead.  What a difference two years has made.  And I wondered, what does two more years ahead hold for me?  Deep thoughts.

Tonight we took Pete and Lilly and walked around downtown Williamsburg.  It’s incredible how good Pete has been.  This was his first test of being in public with a lot of people around.  I swear I am being so selfish by keeping him. This dog is SO incredibly gentle and smart!  He walks right by your side as if he has been professionally trained.  He would have made an AWESOME seeing-eye dog.  BUT, that wasn’t his destiny.  For whatever reason he was meant to come to me.  The dogs have on these shiny bandanas that the groomers put on them yesterday.  They really are beautiful!  People remark on how beautiful they are.  Especially after getting groomed. And well behaved they are too.  ANYONE can come up and touch them and they remain so very gentle and kind.  It’s a hassle traveling with two dogs, but they are a joy to me.  Perhaps it’s empty nest syndrome or maybe just the loneliness I feel so much of my life is filled by my two dogs.  I almost can’t stand to travel without them.

I was supposed to try the church of “V” in Virginia Beach tomorrow morning, but I don’t think I’ll make it probably.  It just doesn’t fit into the schedule for tomorrow. I really want to make it to Williamsburg Pottery.  This is a battle within me because I want to do both things.  God should be my priority, but finding the place, and fighting traffic, well, I’m just not sure it’s going to work.  All I know tonight is by tomorrow night I will be in one of my favorite places in the world.  The Outer Banks, Cape Hatteras.  Surely this feels as the end of the world to most people who come here.  It’s that way to me as I stand on the shore.  Magical things happen when I am in that place. I am believing for a whole lot of magic this trip as well.

Okay, okay, so it’s not a “place” where magic happens, it is in my heart where God lives.  BUT, when I am on Hatteras Island, I feel as if I drove all these miles to find God’s place.  His home.  Sounds crazy I know, but it is what I feel when I am there.

Lots and lots of photos to come, as this has become a new thing that brings me so much inspiration.  In the Outer Banks, there is a sanctuary for very rare birds. I plan to hit this place a lot this trip and just touch a bit of God’s design I seldom have ever paid attention too. Until now.  A new place in my life of which I pray continues growing.  Seeing things as I never have.  A beauty I always missed before.  Just in touching a bit of eternity in my life.  The painful things still in my life, as I guess everyone has certain painful things, but at the same time, God gives us promises around us that there is beauty surrounding us always and forever.  See that, and trust that the painful things will take care of themselves in their own way too.  Easy to say, harder to find the faith as you trust.  But I will.

And my journey continues.  From favorite places for me.  I try to make sense of it all, but I can’t.  Still lots of questions, and wonder.  But I guess that’s all part of the mystery of life.  And mystery is good…………or so someone so special once told me.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight from Williamsburg,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate;  And the wonder continues.  I find myself so often battling the what is and the what isn’t.  I will almost convince myself that this is just some fantasy I have made up through the years………..as I will almost convince myself I have to get over this!  But I don’t.  No matter how much I try to let this go, in someplace I can’t explain, I am told no.  Is it my heart that knows a truth my head just can’t seem to grasp as it looks for something to hold onto?  I don’t have those answers, no matter how deep and how hard I seek………..so I let go, follow my heart, reach out, and still write you every night because if it is you reading the words, then I want you to know what is true for your heart and your world.  And if it isn’t you reading words, well, then I reach out into the universe words I pray somehow fall over you someplace.  I am continuing to live life and discover all the beauty I can find everywhere around me.  I just wish I could share all that beauty with you.  Oh but wait, I can!!  Here…..this is the place of beauty for you and for me.  No matter where you are, please know, I am somewhere out here, maybe even in the end of the world place, and you are there, because where ever I am, you are there in my heart.  Are you on the road? Or are you not?  So many questions, how I pray one day, answers will be found.  Be so blessed wherever you may be.  More coming from the beach, where photos are with you in thought, and dreams of spending that moment with you one day.  Goodnight – Love,  Sunshine