It’s been another day of water for me. Okay, not the beach or anything fun like that, but a day Skylar and I spent for the most part in my pool at home. What a trooper!  I swear this child is a dare-devil!  By the end of the day when we had to drag ourselves out of the pool, she was putting her own face in the water and maybe getting a little bit too daring for even me!

After a full day we met her mommy and daddy half way from  here and there. Not too bad for Amy to drive I don’t think?  It was a nice dinner.

So once again I had a day of Skylar.  Playing with an “almost” 2-year old as hubby was busy doing hubby stuff.  It is wearing, but, I feel that Skylar and I grew so close this weekend. I think it has to do with the fact I am taking her into my environment these days and she is learning to love the water as I do.  It’s been really a special time for her and me.

But life goes on.  One of the things I wanted to do was give her a really special weekend.  One where it was all about her. See, next weekend, Skylar’s life will change forever.  It is all good and positive, I mean ask me, I am an only child these days, but all the same, by this time next weekend she will have a little sister and those days of being the only will be out of reach. I felt perhaps a bit sad for her, tho I know that a little sister will be so exciting!  So we celebrated in some sort of special way by mah ma taking her into her world of cherished places to be.  Anything that is around water. I joked with Amy at dinner,  “If she keeps hanging out with me, she will be about as tan as I am!”  And it’s true!  She did go home with tan lines!  LOL! *see photos at bottom that I am sharing*

My mood for the most part was light-hearted today.  I got a wonderful night of sleep in, even tho I didn’t go to bed until 2:30 a.m., and got up at 8:00 a.m.  Skylar slept all night, which was what we prayed when she went to bed. I always pray over her, but last night I remembered to claim a spirit of peace around her so that she would make it through the night.  She often wakes up screaming and crying. Yup! She has the gift too!!!  But last night, she made it through. 

I didn’t get a any down time this weekend at all because she was with me.  One of the highlights was when we took the dogs to the pond to throw the Frisbee in.  Lilly’s favorite thing to do!  She and Pete frolicked and swam till their hearts were content as Skylar and I stood at the side and laughed at them.  An innocent time for all of us.  Tonight the dogs lay at my feet, feeling about a tired as I myself do!

My day was made when Chad told me this story at dinner.  On Friday, when I went to Amy’s workplace for her shower, I had to cross through all sorts of security checkpoints.  Amy works in a high alert building when it comes to national security.  I’ve heard rumor that her building is high on the Alquda hit list.  Anyway, I have to go through clearance to even see her, and only if Amy comes and meets me.  As we were going through a security check point, as I walked through the metal detectors, one of the guards was joking with Amy about her sister, meaning me.  “Oh no! I’m her mom!” I said laughingly.  He didn’t believe me!  He stopped Amy and asked her if it was true!  “Yeah, she’s my mom.”  Amy says.  “Wow! I can’t believe that!” He acted so very surprised. I just figured he was being kind to me after all the hoopla I had to go through to get into the building.  At dinner tonight Chad told me as he was leaving work that afternoon the guard came up to him and said,  “Hey,  I wasn’t hitting on your mother-in-law, honest! I can’t BELIEVE she’s Amy’s mom! I really thought she was her sister!  Please tell her I wasn’t hitting on her.”  Chad told him it was cool and I probably ATE it up! I think he checked with Chad because he thought Amy and I were teasing him!  It made my night! But I guess that’s what happens when you have your kids at 12!  *KIDDING*  Actually, I have always believed that God is restoring my youth. In more ways than one.  There is a part of me that believes that so many things I gave away unselfishly at such a young age will be returned.  Just a feeling of faith I guess.

The next 2 weeks will be grueling.  Then it is back to work. I SO don’t like non-stop go in my life. I will cherish the next 3 days as it seems these will be the last 3 without a lot of expectations. I have friends waiting to have lunch, which I want to do too, but the truth is, I want to just float in my pool and try to salvage what is left of my summer.  Dream, plan, and believe.  Talk to God! Time for me!! 

On the ride home from dinner I cried to hubby, “I SO didn’t think I’d have to go back to work.”  He says, “I know.”  I REALLY, REALLY thought the property would sell.  But it isn’t because my new Realtors aren’t giving it a 100%!  It’s just a bad market.  Still, I say it’s because it is SO perfectly timed! Isn’t it funny how that thought helps me to continue on right where I am without too much complaint?  It’s true tho!  There is a beautiful plan and I have to believe I am where I am meant to be.

I did talk to Elizabeth for a few minutes tonight.  Poor thing.  She is living in complete chaos in Toledo!  The house she purchased a few weeks ago fell through at the last minute.  She remains in a one-room apartment that is so small!  She spends her days at the park with her dogs while “G” sleeps, as he works overnights.  She’s been so down! I offer her my house again, at anytime!  But she won’t take advantage. I suppose it has to do with not wanting to impose!  I’ve been worried, but what can I do?  Now, she has found a new house and put in a new offer.  She will know Monday if they are interested in taking it or not.  How soon she can move in is unknown? How I PRAY it works for her!  I’m waiting for the time we can meet and have lunch 2.5 hours from here, and from her.  That was our original plan.  But time is running short.  2 more weeks and I am back at work.  Thoughts I’d just not as soon think of tonight.

Truth is, where will I go next?  I thought I knew?  Maybe I didn’t.  Perhaps something will appear that wasn’t even a part of the equation?  Perhaps I will go………………….

As I sit and write, he is on my mind.  He being soul mate.  A deep feeling of wonder surrounding me as I question my sanity once again.  What am I thinking?  In the end, it doesn’t seem to matter.  I think that I was one of those that met someone who I was always meant to meet, and probably knew even before we met or something like that, however that would be possible?  My sanity still in check, I think, I think I will just cherish the warm thoughts of him in this quiet moment I am having for myself.

Another water day.  A day filled with nature all around from the dogs swimming to the bugs Skylar and I found in the pool and tried to rescue from drowning!  A day spent with my first granddaughter as I teach her to love the things I love.  Water and God as we pray together sometimes.  Music!  We had to make sure that we took my ipod and deck out to the pool. I also shared the love of my dogs with her as we made them a part of the day too. I have so much to be grateful right here where I am, but all the same, feel a wind calling me to a new place.  A new horizon up ahead……..perhaps it is a bit foggy now and I can’t see what is in it, but I know, change is so forthcoming and each and everyday as I awaken I am trusting more and more that where it is leading is going to be filled with so much  life itself. 

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate: Okay, so I wrote on my feelings on twin souls earlier today. So being logical in thought, I think it is SO rare to happen. I do believe it happened to me when I met you. Here is why:  I remember always knowing you throughout my life, but always thought it was my vivid imagination!  Then, 5 years before we met, I was shown you in that vision.  Then the morning of the day we met, I was told that was the day we would find one another, and again, I just thought I had lost it!  When I did finally see you, I saw the light from heaven shine down upon you!  Yes, I thought I had cracked up!  Then we met!  You shook my hand!  Elizabeth said your face when I walked into the hallway where we met was one of dazed, she said you were watching me before I came up to you.  Then we shook hands………..I felt it!  I knew you!  “There you are!!”  My spirit said over and over!!  I couldn’t breath!  I melted into every being of who you were right then and there!  I had to run.  Stuff like this just didn’t happen! At least to me.  And through the years I have cried so many tears trying to deal with such an intense experience, but know what?  I found my faith growing stronger! I found a new me I never knew existed! I found courage and strength to face the most dark days of my life because of you.  Suddenly I realized that eternity was SO much bigger than I ever knew……I realized it because I felt it whenever I closed my eyes and saw your face.  I was never shown the ending, or maybe I was and am afraid to believe it, I don’t know………..I only know that no matter where I am, or where I go the rest of my life, there will ALWAYS be a part of you there. And that is why I call you a twin flame/soul or whatever is popular these days to describe the one that you’ve shared eternity with or something like that!  Okay, too deep!  This is what happens when I am filled with water days. I believe in SO many things that most never even think of!  Hey! Wanna go to the beach with me?!!  *winks and blows a kiss*  I send you love and light in the crazy of it all!  Have a beautiful tomorrow….wish I could be there. L  Goodnight to you – Love, Sunshine

I wanted to share my special time with Skylar.

Skylar is waiting for me to get to the pool.  She is holding my ipod deck while I ran to get her lotion.  I told her not to move! I actally grabbed my camera because she was SO precious as she waited to go swimming!  The hat is to keep the sun off of her face.

This is after our first hour of swimming.  Her hair is slightly wet as she has been half putting her face in.  This was right before we took the dogs to the pond.  We were having a great time, Skylar and me!