It’s the midst of the busiest season of my life, as has been the last 20 years, with school beginning and everything, and yet, in the midst of it, God is doing something so incredible with me. I still wonder what is going on with me.  I can’t fight it tho, and don’t want to. I have really learned so much how to surrender and just go with the flow.

Mr. Boss was back today.  My desk was already covered, and I’m not sure he understands?  Perhaps he does, I don’t know.  In the end I have decided God knows and is leading me still.

Leo emailed me. She had a heavy heart. I SO don’t have time to write back right now,  so I tell her to call me at work.  I can work and talk at the same time.  I was so glad she called. I don’t have answers….how much I don’t have answers! But it seems to me as she and I talk, or Spirit Bear and I talk or whom ever, there seems to be this incredible gift of love exchanged in the conversation and I always find myself so full of peace when I hang up. It is the part of the journey I find so soothing.  Whether Leo is upset, or I am upset, it seems in the end we find some sort of understanding that love is our greatest aim in the end.  It was so refreshing for me with an office full of people and deadlines looming before me.

As teachers return to prepare themselves for a week from today when they are due back, I find more and more wanting to hang at my desk to say hi.  This is the hardest thing for me.  I love to talk and share!  But, I am SO busy, I lose time.  There is NO WAY I wouldn’t stop and talk to anyone.  But I find myself losing ground in doing what it is I love doing most, sharing a part of myself.

When I was redoing the mailboxes on Saturday night I had something very weird happen.  A teacher that has been there for years named Dee, I skipped her mailbox. I told hubby, “Ops! I made a mistake!  Dee retired.”  And I omitted her mailbox, going to the next name alphabetically.  I got about 18 teachers away and it dawned on me!  “Oh no!  I’m so sorry hubby!  Dee didn’t retire!  Where did I get that from?”  It was frustrating because we had to go back and redo the mailboxes again, so that she was included.  I remember feeling weird, like how and why did I do that?  Today, Dee comes in.  She was turning in her keys.  She had decided this weekend that she was going to retire.  Something that is VERY unusual for a teacher to do!  Retire a week before school begins!  “Oh, Dee!”  I began to tell her of my story and how I had skipped her mailbox just Saturday night.  The night she decided she was going to retire.  A decision no one knew of, made only in the privacy of her own home with her husband at her side.  Now, mailboxes have to be redone, as there will be a new hire to replace her.  I am left wondering about this.  Did God give me a head’s up?  Was he assisting me when I left her off? I remember it felt so real to me that she was retiring, and yet, I couldn’t figure out where I got that!  Or is God teaching me that He is really giving me a gift in prophecy and knowledge, gifts of the Holy Spirit?  Whatever it is, it seems to be happening more and more frequently.  Once again tho I must stress, it only happens as Good deems, I never try to bring it on.  This one wasn’t even a veil of knowledge.  It was just a fact that was known to me yet there was no way I could have known.  *big hmmmmm*

There was a sad moment today too.  As I was doing mail, reeling in from the shock of Dee retiring and my knowing it before it happened, I came across People magazine for the library.  A story caught my eye.  Sometimes I’m not sure why something grabs me, but this one did.  It was a story of a Doctor and his family that lived in Connecticut.  On July 23, 2 men broke into their house in the middle of the night, beat up the Doctor, tied him in the basement.  The wife, 17-year old daughter, and 11-year old daughter was then subject to hours of horrendous events.  They all were murdered, tho the father did survive.  As I sat and read this article I found myself angry, sad, and so full of questions!  How!! How does this happen?  Why the darkness?  Where and HOW did these perpetrators become so evil?  I had to put the magazine down and pray.  I find these days that in lack of answers given me from my prayers of seeking, God fills me with a peace and trust. As the day wore on, the story still coming to mind,  I felt that perhaps God was showing me that in my understanding of time, I really can’t relate to how they coped.  How do I not know that they were removed from their bodies supernaturally before hand?  It probably makes no sense because I don’t think I can put into words what I was seeing, but what if angels walk them out before the unimaginable happens?  I did find peace in believing that this incredible love sheltered them from that of which I can’t even fathom.  I share this because it has haunted me all day, and yet, I find myself drawing close to God for shelter.  A storm that hit in Connecticut, then hit me today. Even in all the busyness of the day, I would find myself praying for the father, who survived.  I also could see the wife and children surround him from the other side with so much love, he will find the strength to survive. 

I’d like to say I got a lot done, but I can’t.  Interruptions and Mr. Boss needing stuff immediately,  I feel as if I took 2 steps forward, 3 back.  It’s okay tho!  No need to freak out. It will get done, it always does.

After work I went and picked out my new glasses.  They are SO not me, BUT, they are SO in!  Far be it from me to not keep up with the latest fashion!  They are SO cutting edge!  But don’t expect to see me in them too much. I only wear them to work in and on occasion in a restaurant to read menus.  In other words, the eyes are the first to go or so they say.  *laughs*

When I got home, even tho temps were well above 100, I went out for a meditation hike.  Had some stuff to work off. Pete and Lilly were thrilled, for about ¼ mile.  Then, they both started to peter out on me!  Lilly is my personal hero tho!  As we were walking, she suddenly bumped into me from the right where she walked almost knocking me over!  As she did, something jumped!  A snake!  A BIG snake!  I would have stepped on it had she NOT knocked me from the side!  It had jumped to bite I think.  Lilly is my hero!!!! Give your dog a bone!!!!!  After I moved and realized that she really did this, she turned to watch the snake.  Funny, she is ALL about squirrels and rabbits, but she was VERY cautious of this snake and wouldn’t get close.  Pete was Pete.  *huff, huff*  “What’s goin’ on guys?!”  As a 8-month old puppy should be!  I did scream, just from the shock of the suddenness, which brought hubby running!  Did I run?  NO!  I suddenly didn’t have fear, which is beyond belief for me. I stood and watched this snake, Lilly by my side so seriously watching.  Finally hubby found a stick and chased it back into the woods.  I suppose there would have been a day we would have killed it. Now days, no way. I am so into nature and the beauty of.  However, I might have felt different had Lilly not been so observant and I would have gotten bit!  Hey, I still have scars from jellyfish right now! Snake bite and jelly fish scars!  Would that make me a “real” woman of nature or what?  But I didn’t………..which I think I don’t need to prove womanhood in the end.  J  *interesting side note, moments before Lilly knocked me out of the way I did think about snake being in the area. I looked down, didn’t see anything and drifted back into thoughts.*

I talked to my old friend of 25+ years today, Jane.  She’s the one that had a little miracle happen to her when I began to tell her how she had to expect good to flow to her.  She is still waiting to hear, I say that she is going to be blessed beyond belief when she believes!  She has been reading my site. I am SO cautious who I let read my site.  She told me today she has been reading it and LOVES it!  She says I have insight that most don’t and while she has a lot of faith, she wants to know more and finds it here.  Her words meant SO much to me!  Funny how those we hold in such high esteem can sure give us a boost!  How much it meant to me! 

Now comes the circle in my life. I almost fear to bring this up because it is “SO” out there, but I think it’s important on this journey I walk, tho for the life of me, I don’t know why or how?  In the mid 90’s, like, 1994, God began to teach me a LOT of stuff pertaining to the Bible and UFO’s.  The information He was giving me was SO clear and precise, I grew so very much back then.  I even took to my pastor what I believed God was showing me.  Of course my pastor pooh poohed me, threw all my documentation and information down on a chair and said he simply didn’t have time for every theory out there.  I remember it really hurt my feelings and of course, I buried away all that God had been teaching me.  It stayed with me and through the years, I would find my knowledge still remained in tact.  Saturday, God began to lead me again back to the study I had done way back when.  Tonight, more information surfaced in my life without me even looking for it!  It seems that all He showed me back then is NOW starting to be taken serious by some well-known Biblical experts.  What am I to do with it? I haven’t a clue.  I am just amazed at this inner knowing tho that back then God was getting me ready for something.  But what?  I guess it’s like all these other things in my life I can’t explain.  It will all fall into place one day.

Now, I will close.  Bed sounds so good to me about right now.  Another long day tomorrow, and yet a day I know I will be so surrounded in love and light.  I remain here for now because that is where the journey has left me for now. I just wait for the day I am back in a forward motion and moving right along! On that road that leads to my destiny…. where one day, I will understand all that God was doing in my life in these times I just can’t quite understand fully.  In the end it comes down to one important thing tho, and if I never ever have full understanding of anything else, I pray this is the ONE thing I knew and understood with all my heart…….Love.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  Missed you today!  Look how strong I am these days tho! I trust in so many things right now.  I hope wherever you are you had a beautiful day.  In my world, you remained so very close throughout the day, but then, that is a normal day!  Sending you love and light and a few dreams to come true for you.  Hope we get to dance tomorrow?!!!  Have a beautiful day.  Goodnight – Love, Sunshine