What can I say?  Today turned out to be the most awesome day!  It’s a funny thing too,  when we first left at 9:00 a.m. this morning both Vicki and I had this trepidation about going.  It was probably the fact both of us were tired after a very long week for both of us, and the fact it was pouring down rain. Still, something urged me on.  Vicki said she just figured she was along for the ride, you know, good company as she says.  She was right. As I drove in the rain on my way to the beach I really couldn’t figure out what I was doing but I kept going anyway.  There is a lesson in this, I promise.

I had to stop to get gas.  Vicki and I had been in this incredible conversation of destiny and how we think we make choices, but in the end, are we not divinely to make certain choice because certain things must be accomplished between point A and B?  In other words, we were in a deep conversation.  I needed gas. I had been looking for deals along the way, but this two-lane highway passing only through sleepy little towns wasn’t leaving me many choices.  For no reason at all, I suddenly pulled into a gas station. I would soon learn it was a lesson for me, and a chance to be tested on this love and light thing I speak of.

As I pulled in, some car was backing out of a parking spot.  I noticed it, but thought this person didn’t see me. I hurried and pulled next to the pump. I mean, I had the right of way as I was on the main road of the station, I just got over to miss this car, and get out of the way.  When I hopped out, still way deep in thought of our conversation, I heard some lady yell…..“I was backing up!”  She yelled!  “YOU DIDN’T STOP!”  An older lady, I was a bit confused.  “Excuse me, are you talking to me?”  I asked, rather confused.  “YES I’M TALKING TO YOU! I WAS BACKING UP, YOU ALMOST HIT ME!”  Okay, I can tell, this lady has serious anger management.  I’m unsure what to do.  Going off on her crosses my mind as she obviously doesn’t know the rules of the road.  “DIDN”T YOU SEE ME?”  She continued.  On the other side of the gas pump I was using was an older guy pumping his own car, and a guy maybe my age with him.  The older guy looked at her and said, “Incredible!  Lady, you got a problem!”  He looked at me and rolled his eyes.  “IT’S PEOPLE LIKE YOU THAT KILL

PEOPLE!”  She yelled at me!  Now the guy next to me makes a comment,  “Man lady, you got a problem!”  He whispers something to me, but for the life of me, tonight, I don’t remember what it was?  I chuckled.  “YOU THINK IT’S FUNNY?”  The old lady asks me.  *deep breaths, love and light*  “WOULD YOU HAVE THOUGHT IT FUNNY IF YOU KILLED ME?”  The guy goes, “Lady, give it a rest!”  I’ve had about enough now,  *love and light*  I need to be a witness I convince myself. I don’t have to say much, the guys next to me by now are furious at her!  “Lady, it takes all kinds!”  The guy yells at her.  “It would have been YOUR fault not hers! She had the right of way!”  The lady wants to yell at me some more, actually beginning to pull away, she suddenly stops, rolling her window down again to yell more at me!  By now I ignore her, as I have now tuned in to the two guys next to me. The older guy says loud enough the lady hears it, “This happened to me one time at a truck stop, the guy did what this lady is doing to you…when he confronted me, I kicked the sh*t out of him!!”  I couldn’t help it, I laughed, he looked like the kind that could and would! At this she rolls up her window and speeds off.  “Oh no!  I’m not going to do anything like that!” I say to him.  I notice the guy in the passenger side, the one probably my age. He has now lit up a cigarette and is looking at me with a smile.  “You okay?” He asks.  “Yeah, I’m fine. Hey, I’m on my way to the beach in the rain, nothings going to get me down today!!” I say in my bubbly personality.  He takes a drag of his cigarette as I am waiting for my receipt.  “Can I go with you?”  He asks. Oh brother, I think.  They have just protected me, now they want to go to the beach with me!  Why not?  “Sure!  Don’t know how much fun it’s going to be in the rain, but the more the merrier I guess.”  He laughs, I think I just made his day.  “Okay, let’s go!”  He says.  The older man knows that’s not possible as he gives me a word of wisdom,  “Just remember, there’s a world out there of idiots like that lady. You did nothing wrong.  Have fun at the beach.”  The guy my age looks disappointed, “Have a good day.” He says as he gets in the car. With that, they drove away.

When I got in the car, Vicki was cracking up!  Did she get out? No!  She hid in the car!!  From the lady, and from the guys next to me who had defended my honor and to be honest, looked as if they co-stared in “Deliverance.”  But that is another story of judgment that I shall not write of.  Truly, they were very kind to me.

When in the car and back on the road, we still had another hour before we hit the beach, we cracked up!!! “Please tell me that just didn’t happen?”  “Yes, it did!”  Vicki says.  “Well, that’s what I’m talking about!  Why did I pick this particular gas station?  I felt led to pull in there. I think I had a lesson to learn about not going off on someone that is attacking me.  Perhaps I was meant to teach her lessons too! Of how to remain calm.  And the guys from “Deliverance?”  Well………..they got to be a protector to the innocent for a moment in time!”  Point proved we decided.  Yeah, we believe in destiny.

And it rained. The next hour it was rain, rain.  And here we are, headed for the beach.  Still, I didn’t turn around. I mentioned to Vicki that we could go to the outlet mall, but she said she really wanted to at least see the beach, even if it was raining.  And inside, there was a force driving me to continue on.  Why?  It made no sense?  But then, this is the same drive that leads me in my life too.

As we approached the beach, I noticed the sky beginning to clear.  “Look Vicki! I think I see the sky clearing!”  “Yeah maybe?” She says.

We get to the park.  We drive to the beach.  Vicki is in awe!! She had NO idea that there were beaches like this so close to our home.  She pretty much figured I was just taking her to a lake or something.  We grab our chairs.  The sand is wet from all the rain, but it isn’t raining now. Matter of fact, I think the clouds are clearing.  It’s noon.  There is about 4 other people on the beach.  We take our chairs.  We sit down.  The waves are welcoming us.  Vicki loves the beach as much as I do.  I have been here many times, and NEVER have the waves been as they were today! They are as big as the ones in the Outer Banks!!!!  3-4” waves!  As  I notice the waves, the clouds part, the sun comes out!  It has cleared! Within 5 minutes of being on the beach, the rain has left and the sun is out!  It is a miracle in my book!

The rest of the day is a day in paradise.  It is the first time in however long I can remember not being in a rush to leave the beach.  Vicki is as content as I am.  Life is perfect here.  We talk sometimes, and sometimes we are quiet. I dream of him.  She has her own dreams.  Well, she has some issues she needs answers for, but decides in this place, issues don’t matter.

I did go out in the water a little.  The waves so big tho, and the water so cold, I don’t want to body surf or dive under if necessary just because it is so cold.  I go in and get tossed and turned by the waves crashing on me.  I  smile, kind of like my life at the moment.  Vicki walks out moaning at the temperature of the water. We stand for a moment to just enjoy where we are. She asks me, “What do you think you’d be doing if “he” was here?”  This brings an instant smile to my face as the waves crash around me.  I look out to sea……….”Honestly?”  I ask her.  She shakes her head.  “I think I’d be standing here looking out to sea as I am doing, with him by my side.  Feeling the most complete I have ever felt.”  She smiles,  “I think you’re right.  I think just his presence would be enough for you.”  “Yeah, I think so too.”  I get lost in the moment, a poem of him comes to mind.  When will it be I wonder?  At least I’m not asking “if” these days.

The rest of the day was phenomenal!  We had such a wonderful, relaxing time.  We walked on the beach for a long time.  We sat, talking a lot, and being still too just listening to the waves roar as they crashed.  With this incredible week I have had, and the busy one coming up, I am finding new strength.  My power coming from the waves crashing upon the shore.

Here are some photos to show the good time. We actually had a great time taking photos of each other………….

I knew that Vicki and I experienced nothing less than a miracle from God.  I couldn’t have asked for ANY better weather than what we had today.  We were on the beach for 6 hours!!! Arriving at noon and leaving after 6:00 p.m. Yes, I am fried tonight! I am exhausted from all the sun. But I am also so very calm and filled with peace.

We will do this again. As Vicki left, I promised I’d help her with her myspace tomorrow.  Using the photos we took today.  It will be fun for me to do someone else’s page. I think I’ll also update mine tomorrow too.  Funny how a day at the beach can create such a feeling of creativity within me.  And while I’m not sure how, or when,  I need to live closer to the ocean.  Notice, I didn’t say “if” on that one either.

Now, I will take my burned body (by morning it will turn to tan) to bed.  I still feel the power of the ocean as I get ready to close my day.  What a beautiful day.  I am SO grateful that God blessed me so much by having this very special day.  It makes me realize that all these things I feel from within my heart and soul to continue walking towards, even tho it seems my life is so rainy at the moment, I must move on through the rain! When I reach my destination, God will part the clouds, the sun will come out and I will find I am in paradise.  Where it is I was always meant to go.  Pretty cool analogy God has suddenly revealed to my heart tonight.  Miracles seem to be in abundance in my life today.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  Oh yeah!  You were there with me!!  In almost all of the day I just allowed you to be in my heart and shared with you the beauty of what I was experiencing.  I looked at Vicki once and said,  “Do you think he’s in XXXXXX thinking about me at the beach?”  “Yeah, probably wishing he were here.” She said.  I smiled at the thought tho a bit melancholy, “Yeah, but not as much as I wish he was.”  As I walked the shore where water meets land, I would think of you walking with me.  Well, it was just a day in paradise, missing one thing….YOU!  But how much were you missing when you were in my heart the whole time?  One day, if all I feel is real, it will be you there with me. A gift for you below……from the beach, my heart to yours………my way of telling you goodnight tonight as I send you love and light and the peace I so feel from within………May you fee all these things in every part of your being.  Goodnight,  Love Sunshine

Once again today I stood on a sea of blue

Where over and over I thought of you

My eyes were closed, my heart afire

Waves were crashing causing much mire

I spoke your name, I sent you love

I wanted the miracle sent from above

To know you, to be with you, so much to share

Please oh please, tell him how much I care

The wind it did blow, and a kiss I sent too

Hoping so hoping, it’d fall upon you…..
All of this I prayed one day to come true

As I stood once again, on a sea of blue

And dreamed of you………..

And the seagulls cried a song for you too…….