It still amazes me how fast time is going these days. As I’ve harped on for so long, they tell me there really IS a reality to it. Even tho today I did hardly anything, the day still flew.

My day began like this:  I awakened at 5:00am.  There was NO way I was going to get up at 5:00 on a Sunday!  No matter what I did tho, I couldn’t fall back to sleep. This is a sign to me God is getting my attention at that time of day.  I began to pray about anything that came to mind. I believe it was a very spiritual time.  I fell back to sleep then apparently because what happens next is still so clear to me.

I suddenly found myself in the backstreet of an alley.  I felt I was in danger being in this place and I didn’t like it.  I was confused because this was so clear to me, and the last thing I remembered was being in my bed praying. Two bad guys came to hurt me I think, but I turned around and tried to figure it out. “Oh yeah! I am dreaming!” I told myself, except it felt SO real! This is a dream and since this is a dream I will be able to fly out of here!  And I began to fly, yes, I think I was using my arms as the guide.  I felt SO free!  I was aware of my surroundings which was an old brick warehouse. I lifted another woman off the ground, convincing her she could fly too!  And up we went. “If this is a dream,”  I told myself, “Then I want to create Soul Mate to be in it with me. I want answers and I can get them now!” I came to a woman. I can’t tell you who she was but she did know Soul Mate.  She had a message for me, “He doesn’t want you to call him until you can come to him to be his.”  Whoa, this is a dream! I wasn’t supposed to hear this answer.  Next I flew over to another woman, this one did have dark hair, I could see that.  “Who does …. ….. *Soul Mate’s name* love?”  I asked.  She replied with my full name.  “He loves me!” I said as I began to fly higher and higher!  I was still in this warehouse setting, red bricks were so clear to me!  “THIS IS A DREAM!” I shouted, “I shall go to Soul Mate and see him!”  I began to fly higher now, on my way to where he lives, except I was in a brick building and the roof/ceiling was above me.  No problem, it’s a dream I will break through it to get to him! I thought.  I couldn’t get through the ceiling.  As a matter of fact, I hit it a few times trying to break through. The next thing I knew I was falling, no longer able to fly, falling…….falling until I fell back into my body of which I woke up!  Boy did I EVER lay there for a LONG time trying to gather my senses, and to be honest feeling very exhausted!!!

I got up, laughed about the craziness of the dream.  He hadn’t been here yesterday. I hurried to see if he was here over night. He hadn’t been. It’s okay I told myself. I always tell myself tho it is okay, because it is.

I did some things and called Leo. I had promised her if I didn’t call Friday I’d call today.  A marathon conversation began. I lay in the sun as we talked. We worked out issues, she challenged me too!  Some of her words have stayed with me most of the day. When we hung up it was great to feel as if the words flowed freely for both of us. Of course no definitive answers were found, but then I’m not sure there are definitive answers. As I lay in the sun talking, my eyes were closed. I got lost in the conversation when all of a sudden the dream from early this morning came crashing in on me. I began to tell Leo about it.  She agreed, what a strong message dream!  But what did it mean?

After hanging up with Leo I began to do some writing on one of the twin soul forums I frequent. I guess the dream was creating some sort of new thoughts within me about being free, and really being free.  It was as if I began to trust this thing that you have to trust God for His perfect plan vs. your own plans in life.  How I got that from the dream I can’t say for sure, but it seems to me I wanted to fly to Soul Mate and NO MATTER how hard I tried, that brick ceiling was holding me back.  A wall of sorts?  What keeps us apart?  God’s plan vs. mine?  Deep, very deep! I needed to share it with others walking similar journeys. Well, whoever would want to listen.

Then it was time to talk to Amy.  She’d been down south at Chad’s parents all weekend.  Amy and I then had a marathon talk as I sent her to drive by this new dream house. (I have once again deemed a house a dream house.)  It is only 10 minutes from her.  She had driven in her driveway when I called. Skylar started screaming when Amy pulled out.  She wanted to go home! Awww…….”Let me talk to her!”  I told Amy. I began to tell Skylar that she was about to go by the house Mee Mah might buy, don’t you want to see it?  She said, yeah and sort of stopped crying.  I told her I thought she’d like it, adding with PURE excitement that Mee Mah would have a beautiful swimming pool!  I got her calmed down.  Amy drove by the house, LOVED it, of course, Skylar remained good.  Amy and I are talking this whole time. As she drove away Skylar started to scream!  ”I want Mee mah! I want to go to Mee Mah’s house!”  She thought they were coming to see me. She had it all wrong. Oh talk about SOMETHING melting your heart!  That made me sad.

The rest of the day was spent writing. No, not on the book, shame on me! But just writing my heart out.  I’ve recently become a member of yet another forum!  This one is on the year 2012 and the Mayan Indian prediction of 12/21/12 being the last recorded day on earth.  DO I believe it? I won’t name a date or a time, but to some extent, YES, I DEFINTIELY DO believe times are a changin’ and some major things are at the threshold of happening.  Why do I listen to this stuff?  Because I am drawn to it for reasons I can’t say?  Anyway, I’ve recently met some pretty cool people there.  They formed a new social club tonight, where I joined right away.  Very cool to meet new people, or so I feel.

Tonight I had some spiritual time where I connected with the Father and find myself very filled with His love at the moment. It’s the greatest place to be! I tried to explain this to Leo today, of which I’m not always sure I get across like I should, but lately I find myself so okay with where I am today.  Trusting that God has me here for reasons I don’t quite understand but all the same SO happy to do it His way.  Will I make an offer on the house?  The one I have deemed dream house?  As of now, unless my property sells, no, I won’t.  I really would like to have it, but something tells me to hold on.  Oh the patience it takes sometimes to walk this journey of faith!  BUT, as I said last night, when it’s God’s best, everything will fall into place so perfectly.  And when it’s God’s best and the time is right for me to fly, the ceiling will open and I will burst through and I will fly.  Surely this will happen before 2012?  *laughs*

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate: It was yet another day to grow to know myself a little bit better thanks to my friend Leo! Do I sound desperate at night? I’m really not, I swear!  Do I want to fly into your arms? Of course I do!  But I am wise enough to know that the time has not arrived! Now don’t go leaving me a message about that like you did the last time I said that!  But no, I think there is unfinished business in your life and in my life there is some things still not completed.  I wish I could explain what all that meant, but I can’t.  What I DO know is that through all this whatever is meant to be completed stuff, we were allowed to touch one another anyway through space and distance.  Why?  Probably because we are SO far away!  Can you imagine how in trouble we would be if we lived in the same town? I’m not sure we could stay away from one another if we were even 100 miles apart?!  BUT, fate and destiny has a hand in everything. I am one that obviously believes in pre-destined journeys, free will coming in the way we choose to reach our destiny.  But that is something I won’t get into tonight. I began to REALLY believe that way once I met you. It was like a flood gate of memories opening up the second you looked in my eyes. A spiritual connection without end.  Was it romantic too?  You tell me!  I’m so glad you’re back. I miss that call when your not here.  Oh what sort of sick person have I become? *laughs*  Truth is, I am learning so much to just live life one day at a time trusting and knowing that anything could happen at any given moment. Did you know you taught me how to accept disappointments?  Did you know you taught me to really love?  Did you know you taught me patience?  Did you know you taught me a faith I never even knew?  Did you know you taught me to finally be me?  Yeah, the list could go on, but I’ll stop.  You’re my special someone, my muse.  And you know what? If you aren’t who I think you are reading everyday for years and years, well, I still say I cast all this love and light into the universe to fall upon you……….and I always believed in my heart I found special.  Love and light to you SS *special someone*  Goodnight,  Hugs and a lot of love……..Sunshine