Tonight I sit on my deck, fountain flowing, frogs and crickets now awakened after a winter’s slumber, and a nice evening breeze enticing me to embrace the moment.  Obviously my mood is a bit better tonight after having gone through some really challenging times the past few days.

I was in the pool swimming by 7:30 this morning. I’m not sure I ever thought I could swim laps that early, but I know if I can JUST make myself get there, I will benefit greatly.  The dock for my ipod had a cord that has shorted out so I’m not able to have music. I was disappointed about it, but in the end though about the quality time I could spend with God.  Talking and being still to listen.  When I awakened this morning I knew today must be spent focusing on Him, and trying to get a bit more direction of where it is I should go.

I still have a lot of heavy things weighing in on my mind.  Not that fear is a part of what I am feeling about times beginning to get darker and darker, but wisdom is.  Has God stopped me moving anyplace because of what is to come?  These were the questions I needed to ask Him. I needed wisdom.  In the end it came down to something very simple.  Trusting He will open and close doors as necessary.  By the time I got through with my hour workout, I honestly did have a better frame of mind going for me.

I thought about this newest house that I think would be perfect for me. Yeah, at one time I called it dream house, but really houses can’t be dreams. Once you move in, eventually you will become complacent. I think it happens to all of us.  But for now, to be honest if I was going to dream of a house all these years, this one would be close to what I would have dreamed. Well, with the exception of a log cabin or one of those beautiful places on the Atlantic in Kitty Hawk. See!  There is always something better to be dreamed of.  But for here and now, this house seems to fill all that I want, for now.  The swimming pool this time of year would be wonderful!  I could simply walk out of my kitchen onto the deck and into the pool to work out.  No more driving to a health club!  Gosh, the world is falling apart at the seams and I think of a swimming pool?  I guess I have to continue living and those dreams or things we hold important in our hearts have a purpose.

The rest of the day was spent a lot of the day in listening, talking, and constant focus upon God.  I really did begin to feel some better.  Why am I one that lets it build and build, then I explode, then I fall apart, then I go where I should have gone before it ever built and built. Ugh!  Gosh this human journey isn’t easy! *bangs head*

I sunbathed a lot of the morning after my swim, still talking to God. I didn’t even listen to music!  Just a silent meditation of me talking, Him listening, Him talking, me listening. I love these times!  The carpet people came about mid-way through my time in the sun and repaired my carpet.  One thing down of the gazillion yet to be done!

When I was finished sunbathing I headed to town to do a bunch of errands. I actually shopped for a minute but I was having one of those, “I hate my body” days. Nothing looked or felt good. I headed for the grocery store to purchase a couple things I forgot the other day.  Anyone notice how HIGH groceries are going now?  OMG!  I swear prices go up with each and every trip I make! *gasps*  Elizabeth called me as I was entering. I got so caught up in talking to her I lost track of what it was I went in for.  I did the best I could, of course forgetting some stuff and headed home.

My realtor/friend called while I was talking to Elizabeth I guess.  There’s some real stuff going on, some real possibilities of at least one house selling.  Open doors? Closed doors? What do I do now?  Those type things that had to be discussed. Anyway, I have gotten involved. One of my renters, a young kid of about 23 REALLY wants to buy one of the house he now rents from me but has procrastinated calling my Realtors. So, I get involved. They now have an appointment tomorrow. In the meantime I have an appointment to go see the house I think I may be interested in purchasing on Thursday (yeah, this latest dream house).  Amy will meet us there.  Will I make an offer?  Will my renter be approved for a loan? How will all this play out?  Are these closed doors?  What about my house? What about the other rental?  Faith!  I’m really not going to fret about any of this I decided!

Enter Arthur.  Who is Arthur?  Arthur is a 22-year old African American male, (description is used to help one picture Arthur), who was visiting my renter when I went over to get the appointment set up.  Arthur walked out of the garage as I was walking in.  “Hi, is Joey here?” I ask.  “Yeah, and who are you?”  Arthur asked. I explained as he put out his hand to shake mine. I immediately liked Arthur.  He and I began talking and talking while Joey went in to call the Realtors.  Before I knew it we were on subjects I had no idea how we got there. I told him my aspirations of finishing this book. Of course the first question was what was the content of the book. When I tell him the journey of soul mates he was FASCINATED!  He immediately began to tell me the story he is living.  Before long Joey came out, appointment set up, so we were interrupted.  I headed home, but felt so much light-hearted because Arthur has that gift of love and light around him. I really enjoyed my talk with him.

They were all fishing at the pond. I was grilling out dinner, doing responsible things, watching the latest poll returns *gags* and still trying to stay filled with faith. 

A bit later I looked out the front door, hubby is now talking with Arthur. I come out to join in the conversation, Arthur is asking about renting MY house!  He is in love with the place and had been told there was a possibility if I move, I will rent my house until it sells.  Arthur is BEGGING to let us know!  I wonder, is this an open door from above? One more in this day of which I have requested open and closed doors?  Before long Arthur is telling me of his spirituality which is SO similar to my own. We are rambling about faith, love, light and God’s gifts. I could have stood there forever talking with Arthur about pre-destiny, God’s love, the paths we walk and how we meet people that can instantly change our lives!  Talk about being on the same page with somebody!  All in my front yard, overlooking the pond, under clear blue skies.  For a moment I felt so happy again. 

Arthur looked at me,  “I have a gift of discernment.”  He said.  “Really?” I replied.  “Yeah, and you have a very good spirit. I can tell you now your book is going to make it big!  You are very special and are a good, good person. Yeah, you are about to make it big.”  I am NOT a shy person! Well, unless it came to my soul mate anyway.  But Arthur had such power in his words!  I became speechless. Did I giggle?  Did I blush? I don’t know, I just remember putting my hands over my face because I felt the power of his words. I believe he was prophesying over me and I was very, very humbled. Taken back, unsure what to say.  Hubby stood there listening,  “Yeah, she’s GOT to get this book done!”  Arthur went on to say there would be sequels as well.  I remained speechless.

It was such a beautiful conversation!  You know what I decided when I came in? I miss my friends at work where I shared SO many spiritual conversations in a day’s time!  There were SO many people I was SO close to, I had so many options of people I could share spiritual stories with. My faith. I am VERY limited these days having hardly no one to share this with. Yet, am I in a fill up time where God wants me to only focus upon Him?  AND Arthur!  Of ALL the days for him to just show up in my world, following a day of complete spiritual seeking!  Having turned it all over to God!  Suddenly a messenger appears with words that seem leading to me?

I came in still feeling so humble. I still am.  As I was lost in the moment my cell phone rang. It was my boss. She’s on the road and I had left some important information out, she was feeling lost. I got on line, tried to guide her as best I could, feeling like a failure in the process! Gotta love the balance of life! Humbled by two complete polar opposites, I swear!  But we got it worked out. She’s okay.

So as I close this journal, I realize tonight that Arthur’s words filled me to now end it is time to begin writing again! On the book! I have been so caught up in the world’s woes I had pretty much given up the idea that this was somehow in my destiny.  Now I believe it is very much a part of my tomorrows.  I don’t know how it is all going to work out but without a doubt I believe Arthur was sent to me today to remind me of where it is I am ultimately going.  I guess I lose sight of this in the cares of the world living. Guess God needed me to stop and listen.  I’m glad He woke me up this morning and drew me into His presence.  I feel much different tonight than I did last.  But then it’s all a journey.  So much to learn, so many places to go. I feel back on track for tonight.  Mostly tho, I feel filled with such love.  God’s love.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

Sunshine

Goodnight Soul Mate:  We were meant to meet. We were meant to teach one another so many things. I have no doubt of that these days. I cherish what you are in my heart, and that is so many things.  I’m back on track.  Thanks for being my muse.  Even if you didn’t do it purposely, I think on some level you did. I just think you knew. Now I know too. J  I send you, my special someone, love and light.  Goodnight,  Love, Sunshine

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