It’s 10:30 as I begin to write. It’s so late because I’ve been at dinner tonight with the girls.  My friends from the High School.  Of course Elizabeth couldn’t be here, which we all miss when she isn’t, but life has to go on.  Soon she will be unable to join us most of the time. My hopes are at least once a year she can make it back to celebrate with all of us……but moving so far away this time, who can know?  It makes me sad to think about, so I won’t.  It was great catching up. I love to spend evenings as tonight with “the girls.”  There was a time we all spent 5 days a week together, and shared so much.  But life changes, and people move on, new people have taken Elizabeth’s place, Sydney’s place, and my place, but still it is apparent that the close bonds we all shared remain.  I had a great time tho found myself wandering a bit to all going on in my life at the moment.

Grandbaby #5 was born on Tuesday, June 9 at 9:27 in the a.m.  Abigail Esther weighed in at 8’8, and was 19” long.  It was the first grandchild I wasn’t there for her birth. I felt horrible, but life just didn’t allow it to be. I’ve kept in close contact with Joel tho by phone.  Tho Abigail has been jaundiced, tonight I hear she is better and may go home tomorrow.  That’d be nice with us going on Saturday to see them for the weekend.  I can’t wait to see her!  Photos forthcoming, OF COURSE!  I hear tonight Amy has decided to go with us.  A quick, packed trip in my Navigator, provided it gets fixed by tomorrow morning at 11:00am, when I get off work.  As I said, a LOT going on at the moment!  “IF” it gets fixed as the mechanic today said he would do his best if the part came in, then it will be Dell, me, Amy, Skylar, Bree, Pete and Lilly in the car.  Yes, 3 adults, 2 children, and 2 BIG dogs!  It’s doable, and we will make it work. If my car doesn’t get done, then we have to figure out something else, obviously, 2 cars will need to be driven in that case.

Work has been so incredibly busy!  We have camps with middle school kids from urban areas going on this week which has left me covered up!  Next week is high school kids.  This has garnered state attention and I find myself working very closely with the Lt. Governor’s office again.  The guy from the Lt. Governor’s office has requested I be there with him next week each day to help out. I will switch my schedule to work 5 mornings next week from 7:30 – 11:30.  The exciting thing about this is the contacts I now have in the state house.  Should my property “ever” sell, and I finally move to the city I have some contacts to perhaps get a job in the state house.  Would I like that I wonder?  Keeps political opinions to self.

Speaking of “ever” selling;  I am back to square one.  The latest guy who wanted to purchase it SO much never came through. It took 4 weeks to discover this! *sighs*  The ones that have wanted it since last summer still are not coming around, regardless of the fact I have dropped it $1000s again!   I am so frustrated with this, yet telling myself everything happens for a reason!  I continue to believe this even tho that “human” part of me is so tired of waiting.  2.5 years seems SO long to wait as I have watched the price plummet.  I told Dell the other night that 5 years from now we will look back and see why God did it the way He did, but for now, we can’t see that, so it becomes a matter of faith trusting.  Dell sort of listened I think, but once again 2 hours a day travel time is wearing on him and I seldom see him.  As a matter of fact I will see him today for all of 5 minutes. Now that I am home he stays in his room resting, watching TV, etc., and here I am writing.  So yes, much as I trust this is all for a reason, I am “TIRED” of being stuck in the middle of 2 places and unable to really move.

I am totally addicted to facebook now!  I have learned how to chat, which is ultra cool!  The other night I was talking to Chad in Afghanistan, a friend in San Diego, a friend in Illinois, Amy in the city, and Chad’s mom in the southern part of the state all at the same time!  Now THAT is mind boggling to think that we can do this and it doesn’t cost money, as in olden days when long distance would have been OUTRAGOUS!  Not to mention there were no means to talk to people from those distances at the same time!  Do we really realize where we are in this world these days or do we just take it for granted?

Tomorrow is a very exciting day for me!  I have a friend I worked with at the radio station back in the 80s.  We have shared some of our greatest secrets in life through the years.   I haven’t seen “S” since 2001, shortly after I met Soul Mate, and felt I wanted to share the story with her.  LOL, that was before I had even seen him the 2^nd time and was trying to figure out what the heck had happened to me!  She was the one that sort of set my feet to checking out what soul mates were, having lived her own soul mate experience years before.  Tomorrow, we are meeting for lunch!  She lives in the city I want to move to. I told her a month ago it’d be no problem for me to drive there and meet her, after all Dell just works down the road!  I just didn’t know I’d be leaving for Joel’s, 6 hours from here the next day, that my Lincoln would be in the shop, and that I’d have so much going on.  I’m not canceling because I totally look forward to seeing her and our time together!  Lots more to fill her in on my story!  Synchronicity at  its finest that’s for sure!  8.5 years later, yes, he is still very much a part of my life and I am sure she will be amazed at the growth I’ve experienced.  I am also sure my friend will have many stories to share with me of her journey as well, 8 years later!  We will probably sit and talk for 4 hours, easily!  Tho tomorrow will need to be shortened as Jason wants to meet for dinner, I am waiting to see if we will stay at Amy’s tomorrow night, etc., etc……just so much going on.

And with that, I will close!  Tho things seem not to be going my way at the moment I continue to speak words of life to myself, like, ……”Peace comes from within, not without, whatever happens, happens for a reason and I know that God is in control!  I am simply being prepared for eternity by enhancing the faith experience of who God is and the love available, no matter what I face.”  See! I am muddling through this journey thing call life.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

~Sunshine

GNTS:  And still, I continue to hold in my heart something so special.  I know you’re here, even on days when it appears you are so busy, you find a time to come.  You know what I told you the other night about the boy who remembers being in WWII, and how I swear I understand because I remember you, or looking for you when I was 2?  My friend Lise asked me for the link to watch the clip, and I decided I wanted to share it with you!  Here is the link to watch the story, which gives me so much peace because I had the same experience……..tho I forgot about it as I grew up, perhaps I didn’t?  Did I ever tell you when I was 3 I begged my parents to take me to California?  Guess what?  That was where you lived.  Why would a 3 –year old want to go to California?  When I was 17 I lost interest in going to California and felt I belonged in XXXXXXX (state hidden to hide your identity.)  It was the weirdest thing, I just knew I HAD to be there!  I even got married and moved there…………if I got married I “could” move there I should say, so I did. I never understood why I felt the need to be there, well, later in life, MUCH later, I would find out, it was where you lived at the time!  Oh, so many more stories of synchronicity, but I will close here and just post the link so you can watch the story.  Is it real?  I only know something similar happened to me, but only knowing I had to find you…………………only I never found you, you found me. Hmmmm…………….Here’s the link:

http://www.nhne.org/news/NewsArticlesArchive/tabid/400/articleType/ArticleView/articleId/5799/Default.aspx

Goodnight ~ just me