Well after 10:00pm now, I finally have a chance to sit and write all that has been going on!  My life continues to be a whirlwind, with so many changes happening, and not happening, and needing to be here and there, that I find I have so little time for me, and I am one that needs LOTS of time for me. I still wonder how I’d be doing it if I worked full time!  Perhaps this is why God sent me to the university part-time job a few years ago, knowing days and times as these upon me were coming. It reminds me, He goes before us to prepare the way as He knows the beginning from the end.  And yes, I believe this with all my heart!

I’m just in from traveling home from Joel and Emma’s.  Emma was released from the hospital on Friday, we were there Saturday to see the newest granddaughter, Abigail.  Amy, Skylar, and Bree traveled with us along with Pete and Lilly my two golden retrievers who were the best dogs anyone can imagine!  With car seats and 3 adults, space was limited for them. Pete sat in the very back of the Navigator next to Bree, Lilly sat on the floor beneath Skylar’s feet.  Crowded, but never once did they complain!  The awesome thing about these dogs is when we open up the doors to get the kids out they never attempt to jump out. My friend Jane says she’s never seen anything like it.  I think I take it for granted, but noticed this trip how they are so well behaved.  When we took Amy and the girls to their car parked in a parking garage in the city on our way home, we had the car doors opened unloading car seats, and Amy’s bags for a good 10 minutes.  Those dogs just sat and watched, tho it would have been easy for them to jump out.  At Joel’s house they were so well behaved, I can’t believe it.  Okay, I am digressing! So back to the trip!

We arrived Saturday afternoon.  Abigail is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!! She has more hair than I have EVER, EVER seen on a newborn!  Even her eyebrows are already full!  It is almost pitch black like her mommy’s!  Her skin tone is incredibly beautiful and to be honest, I hardly heard her cry while there.  I’m not one of those people that loves to hold babies, but I found myself holding her this time. She is so sweet and gentle.  Yes, this is what I see in her.  This morning I went back to her bedroom, where I slept on the futon last night. There’s  a rocking chair  located in her room. I sat in that chair and held her for the longest time talking to her. I prayed over her, speaking words of life for her future, and I began to ask her questions about where she’s come from.  As I was speaking the words of life I SWEAR she just sat there and kept smiling. I know, newborns don’t smile, and if they do it’s simply gas……….WHATEVER! I know what I saw. A moment etched in my mind forever!  Babies hold a secret, I truly believe this. Unfortunately they can’t communicate to answer all that it is I’d love to know.  So I simply cuddle her, and watch her sweet, little face as I wonder what she knows that I don’t.  Before long tho Skylar found me, then Dell, then Bree, and then Drew.  Before I knew it Dell was on the futon, and the little ones crawling all over him.  So much for my quiet moments with Abigail……

Amy and I chipped in together and went and got groceries last night to make my “famous” breakfast casserole for breakfast this morning, then we brought in KFC for dinner last night. My hopes were to make some good casseroles for Emma for the week, but a 7-hour drive, little ones in the car, a late arrival, and hardly ANY sleep from the night before left this girl knowing that it was simply going to be KFC, and breakfast casserole and that was about all I could do!  It was a great time, tho Emma is still recouping from her C-section. This time Drew acts as if he REALLY knows us, being particularly drawn to Dell, whom he affectionately has named, “Hap pa.”  It’s adorable!  He seemed to enjoy Skylar and Bree being there. 

The trip home was long.  Everyone slept as I drove through Kentucky…….where the rain poured. I wanted to break out singing “Kentucky Rain” but since the whole car was sound asleep I didn’t……..only in my mind. *laughs*

Friday was a SUPER busy day! I worked, met my friend “S” for lunch and caught up from 8 years of so many things!  Once again sharing our secrets and all that we have learned, how much both of us have grown on the journey. It’s incredible!  What I can’t believe tho is how after 8 years we can meet at a restaurant, grab a table on the patio overlooking the lake, which was incredibly beautiful by the way, and it feels as if no time has passed. I think that’s how you know you really do have a friend in someone!  Her cell phone rang how many times?  Mine rang once…………”It’s my realtor!”  I said after we had just discussed how frustrated I was with selling this property.

“Guess what!”  My realtor began.  She went on to tell me how the people who have wanted this property for the past 10 months, and have come to see it like 6 or 7 times want to come back an 8^th time!  This comes after I lowered the price another $30 K and had my realtor call theirs to say this would be my rock bottom, FIRM offer!  For those that remember the story,  their realtor I affectionately have entitled the realtor from *ell!  She hates my property, for whatever reason,  NONE of us can figure out, and has done all she could to sway these people elsewhere.  It is rumored they hadn’t talked to her in a long time, so my hopes are they got sick of her interfering in what they know in their hearts they want. (I could be wrong, as I am merely speculating here.)  I have asked my realtor to be present at this next showing. I think that is only fair after all, this is the 8^th time, and I really need someone to represent my interest!  They are coming tomorrow at 5:00pm, this following me being gone ALL day Friday, and this weekend, not getting home till 10:00pm tonight! The only good thing is I have scheduled to work all week from 7:30 – 11:30am, with the exception of tomorrow where I will work 7:00 – 11:00am.  That will give me AMPLE time to come home and have this place “show ready!”  Once again……….*sighs*

Friday in between lunch with “S”, and meeting Susan and Jason for dinner, Dell and I drove to this latest house I decided would work.  I still like it, but have decided they would have to come down a bunch. In this market and me taking such a hit on my own (should it really sell this time), I just feel they are going to have to take a hit as well!  First thing I see as we drive by, there is another showing on it!  Someone was looking at it!  Ugh!  I am SO tired of finding what I think I want and then someone else buys it!  For 2 years now I have had about 5 houses I REALLY, REALLY loved, only to have someone else buy them!  These were houses that sat empty for 2-3 years!  They sit empty till I fall in love with them and have all sorts of visions on what I want to do with them.  I told Dell when I saw it was being shown,  “I didn’t want that stupid house anyway!”  Hoping if I fake not wanting it, it might somehow all work out.  I just know God has a plan, or so I tell myself when I feel so frustrated with the whole process.  Dinner with Jason and Susie at “Fridays” was nice.  Elizabeth is growing so quickly!  She apparently found her voice as I was holding her at dinner and she would squeal like a cat or something! It was hysterical!  She will be 4 months this week.  Wow.  Then we met Amy at a fancy hotel in the city where Chad’s parents were staying for a convention they were attending.  We all hung out at the hotel WAY too late, knowing the next morning we were going to have to get up early to head for Tennessee, where Joel is stationed.  Amy and girls rode home with us, staying here that night.  Amy and I stayed up almost till 1:00 messing around on facebook and taking trivia quizzes!  It was a great old-fashioned time, just the wrong night to do it having to leave so early on Saturday.

Last night Amy brought the movie, “He’s Just Not That Into You” to Emma’s for us “girls” to watch.  I got about half way through and just couldn’t keep my eyes open. I headed to bed without watching the ending, something I seldom do.  The little I watched tho got this girl thinking about a lot of things!  Is this the best advice in the world or is there really such a thing as some special connections that don’t follow the rules?  IE: Twin souls, soul mates, etc.?  Deep thoughts on a night that I am struggling to keep my eyes open! So I will close, knowing I will probably talk about this a whole lot more as the days go on.  Also, photos of the new little one will be posted probably tomorrow night, or Tuesday. I need time to upload them from my camera to the computer.  Rest assured tho, I will! You HAVE to see all that hair, oh my!

Tomorrow will be one more round! Here we go again, will they or won’t they?  Will they offer my bottom line, or not?  How long will I have to wait to hear this time?  They must be REALLY interested as I was told they are flying in the last son to see it. (The others have all been here.)  The anticipation of it all is causing this “spirit of peace” I’ve had for so long to be a little anxious here!  Sometimes I get so frustrated being human!!! *laughs*

As the faith, love, and light lead me on.

Goodnight,

~Sunshine

GNTS:  As life goes on, with so many things all around me, I always stop to think of you.  It’s the connection that I know will always be there, as crazy as it seems to think about.  Sometimes I wonder how you are doing in your life too…….and since you told me you are very happy these days it warms my heart so very much, and yet, we still need to know we can touch.  It’s as if I know I have to live my life where I am, and I know you have to live your life where you are, and yet, it’s like in some place, some time, we’re together looking back on where we really are today.  Does that even make sense? Perhaps you will understand it too, cause perhaps you experience the same thoughts and feelings I do.  Hey, explain normal to me, as I sure don’t believe it’s as presented in “He’s Just Not That In To You.”  But that’s another story for another night……………Goodnight my special one,  ~ just me

*special note:  Too tired and too late to proofread………….please forgive typos*