It’s way late, again!  I wish I had an excuse for not being here earlier, but I really don’t.  These days finds me on a perpetual hold, challenging my patience in ways that will only lead to growth in the end, but in this moment testing everything about me!  For now, I just seem to have to take things one moment to one moment.

We are on hold as the people that may purchase my property *finally* are in the process of seeing if things that they want to do can be done, IE: building new houses, etc.  “Last” I heard, they were to have a big pow wow last night.  This time they flew a son in from New York to be at the showing, and asked a son to drive 3 hours as well. All 5 of the sons were here, along with the mom and dad, and then the two realtors. It looked like a party.  The sons are adult sons, and I’m sure one of them is probably my age.  The mom and dad who are the interested ones in buying are nearing 70.  I thought I might hear today something, but I didn’t.  After looking here since last August, it is apparent they don’t make quick decisions! At this point I am getting “antsy” if that’s the right word to describe it. My life just seems so on hold………..in so many ways, constantly and always on hold. *long sigh*

Last week Amy had Skylar and Bree’s photos taken at one of those “national” photo places located in the malls.  The manager of the store absolutely fell in love with Skylar!  Long story short they sent her photo to corporate office, and had Amy sign a “modeling” agreement.   Amy decided to send some of these photos into a modeling agency as well, having been swayed to believe Skylar has “the look.”  She actually heard back from the agency that she had passed the first round, which 80% of submitted photos never do. She was excited!  Today she got another email which said Skylar’s photo had been reviewed by a corporate representative and they were requesting more photos to be uploaded, along with the link to upload to.  It’s very exciting for Amy at the moment, tho I have mixed emotions.  Having done a little modeling on a local level years ago I know what a HORRIBLE world that is! Glamorous it is not! At least in my psyche it wasn’t.  I guess I’m too sensitive and real or something.  So while I am excited for Amy, I am hesitant as well.  The words that come to mind are, “Be careful what you wish for.”  But, being mee maw…………………of course I think she is beautiful and yes, the camera LOVES this child!  Here is a photo of her I took that I think is so gorgeous!

Oh my! It is now almost midnight, and I have to be at work early in the morning so I will close. No, not a long journal……..nor filled with a lot of spiritual insight, but at the moment I have having one heck of a human experience, where I find myself coming and going!  I sure hope life returns to normal one day, where I am at the next place and not living in between two points………………..but perhaps the journey is meant to be lived in the wonder of what tomorrow will bring.

As the faith, love, and light lead me on…..(oh, and don’t forget about patience too).

Goodnight

~Sunshine

GNTS:  How much  I wish sometimes we could talk.  I always wonder how we will ever get past the “plane” place to the real world place where we finally can talk.  What would you say? What would I say?  Would you tell me to be patient now or would you tell me to screw it and do something else?  What would I say to you? I’m happy for you…….because I am?  Would I cry on your shoulder? Maybe? Or perhaps I’d just sit and say,  “uh huh, uh huh……….”  Memories from the past………..*laughs*  Oh what we have been through, even tho miles apart and in such different worlds. Perhaps I always made a mountain out of a mole hill……….but if I did, you must have been on the mountain top with me, cause you’re still here, and you’re STILL letting me know you’re near.  Thank you.  Goodnight,  I do miss you in so many ways ~just me